FEAR

This is a kind of dark counterpoint to "To An Un-met Love", wherein I expressed my conviction that my She was out there somewhere. Here, I bemoan a pre-emptive end to my quest.

FEAR

 

Fear such as I have never known

   Engulfs me, holds me in its thrall

   Encompassing my life, my All,

That once was Me away has flown!

 

My heart seems to be made of Bone

   Nor will it hearken to my call

   My Spirit, once high-flown has fall-

en, Chained as it were to a great Stone.

 

The One whom I did once believe

   To be the One for whom I sought

 

To be my Solace, my Reprieve

   'twould seem she certainly is NOT!

 

I fain would stay, but my heart cries, "Leave!";

   now the Fear of choosing

          The Pain of losing,

      Or the Pain of staying's what I've got!

 

10-23-91

Author's Note

A mildly modified Sonnet.

Reviews

[Rick Puetter]

Dear Mark,

Wonderful writing. Wonderful introspective insights not only personal but of the human condition.

Ah, fear! How it motivates us. How it insidiously weaves its tangles through our thoughts and being till it vies for control of all attention and action. It makes us run unthinking. It stops us dead in our tracks with violent shaking.

The fear of making the wrong choice. How often do we contemplate this in our lives?

Well written.

Best regards,

Rick

[LisetteCanWrite!]

The flow of your sonnet is very pleasing.. especially in your choice of words.. your format definitely is of an older model but refreshing!!! This is the true writing of a real poet!!! Thank you for sharing your devine work!!

[Markymark]

Mark,

Another good one. I was wondering about the rhyme scheme changing from the 3rd stanza....but I picked up on it. I'm a slow learner. SO, you kept this elusive damsel in the shadows for 11 years! Man....you must have built expectations so high that no earthly mortal could live up to her. Are we the only people in this site who experiment with the older forms? I like them alot, and think they give a piece more depth and sometimes....class. If we keep this up, we might have to attempt a collaborative effort. I might have to work on my abstractions some though. Good write as always.

Mark

[H. G. ROBERT]

Great Sonnet. Your ending is very strong.
Nice words, well-penned writing.

I like the concept too.