Memories of a dream

This piece of writing is about me struggling to accept the fact that not all love lasts...

I see black when you don't listen to me

I go back when you depended solely on me

Is is true that you're over it?

Well, that's OK. 

Because one day I swear to you, I'll get over it. 

You'll regret it, you'd be embarrassed, you'd be shameful, I'd be ecstatic. 

Turn to your friends, well, they ain't there,

Hide it all in, you can't escape nowhere.

Your words are like dust

My soul is still untouched

My hurt is liberated, my anger evaporated

I don't lay no more awake at night

Wondering why you still don't look me in the eye

Still don't know what went through your mind

When you knew you'd never be mine

I made mistakes, I know that's true

But I did everything I could to stay with you

And all I got in return is the cold stares

The angry responses, the emotionless eyes, the awkward poses

Thought if I let you go, you'd come running back to me

But in reality, my pride got in the way of what I couldn't see

I set a boundary, I said goodbye

And all I wanted to hide were the tears in my eyes

And now you walk past me

Its like I ain't there

You'd promised you'd let me be a part of your life, somewhere

And when I pleaded for you to tell me the truth

You kept saying there was nothing left for us to do

That are roads had separated, that our love hadn't made it

You said that we weren't meant to be

But in reality, it was your stubborn mind who didn't want to be with me

Have all my feelings gone away?

I can't tell

But I reminisce on the good times

When you'd wrap your arms around me

And tell me to stay

And you'd whisper in my ear

That the bad times will go away

Ahead of us was the struggle

But I looked forward to the summer we'd spend together

Little did I know

That the sleepless nights and me crying in my room

Would make this fantasy end to soon

If we wanted, I guess we could have made it

But I guess destiny's an open book

We can always look at the blurry picture

But when all our hopes crash and burn

Maybe then there would be a lesson to learn...

Author's Note

general thoughts?

Reviews

[Carolann Dowsett]

Ouch! I can feel the hurt, the pain, the anger and the grief in this poem. It's wonderfully written and teaming with emotions and honesty. Great poem well done!

[Maria M]

Thank you so much ! Yes I wanted to portray those emotions especially, in this way this poem is relatable to any one who's going through the same thing ! I'm glad you enjoyed it !

[Carolann Dowsett]

Welcome :)

[Chris]

a good description of letting go...

[Maria M]

Thank you i'm glad you liked it :)

[Chris]

I don't know that letting go EVER gets any easier... somehow there isn't much to prepare you for being left behind.

[Maria M]

That's true, but this is where time works its wonders and works to our advantage.. time heals :)

[Pradeep Nair]

It's not a general thought.
An unseen talent is being blossomed here.
"The angry responses, the emotionless eyes, the awkward poses
Thought if I let you go, you'd come running back to me"
It's really wonderful imagery you have drawn for me here.
Thanks for such a piece of mastery.

[Maria M]

Thank you so much, I'm quite shocked that someone loves my work so much!!

I am glad you enjoyed it Pradeep :)

[WhimsicalMind]

The person you speak of is not worth it. This reminds me of the pain I once endured from a boy when I was your age. I believe life gives us these little trials to not only teach us but help us grow to be stronger individuals. I truly enjoyed your poem. Thanks for sharing :)

[Maria M]

Thank you for taking the time to read this poem and review it, it means a lot ! :)