Leaving Me Loving You

It's about him again, ignore any spelling mistakes.

You were a shadow
You existed when my life was bright.
You are not what i have now,
I don't feel right
Feeling you away,
Where i lost you
In the depths of pain,
It was a blow few
Have yet felt.
And im sorry i lost
Im sorry you dealt
With my frost-
Like love,
I wasnt warm,
There was no dove
Of peace to warn
Us of our fate.
I cannot forget
How much you hate,
How much you regret.
How much you lied
To me every time,
Saying you love me, it was defied.
Darling, dont make me laugh,
I could never be loved by
Somebody half
As perfect as you.
So here is another last goodbye.
You dont love me,
But i do not lie,
I love you,
And as i write,
I cry, thinking
Someone as perfect as you
Could lie to a girl
As depressing as me.
I told you i conldnt live without you.
And without you i want to be dead.
Just think, no, speak,
How much did you really hate me?
I can understand,
I can keep in mind.
I cannot forget
This monstrous regret,
This stress,
This heartache.
The end.
Not a new begining,
The smile i have
Is an illusion,
I cant be happy without you.

Author's Note

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