the cuts that run deep

thinking of you,

i grasp the blade,

the blade of pain and suffering,

now pressing the blade to my dull rocky skin,

the cold lifeless edge touches,

i pull the knife,

ripping my flesh,

i begin to bleed.

the old failimar sting,

try to kill all pain,

i remember everyday,

us sitting together,

telling each other that we were in love,

you kissing me,

i kissing you,

now i feel the blood begin to ripple down my arm,

the physical pain that i have brought upon myself,

now i think of how you left me,

how you didn't care,

how you didnt show the true you,

destoryed in my own desperation,

i try to fight but have no strength,

no will,

the good,

the bad,

i told and showed you everything,

you just hid,

now all my hope, dreams, and faith are dead,

i now feel dead,

i gave you my heart,

you took it ripped it up and threw it away,

crippled who i am,

so i run the blade down my arm,

i now have invited the shadow of death,

when will he take me?

Author's Note

hope you like it. i just dont know.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Having written this, your blood could have cleansed the pain.. i don't know. Writing dredges hurt, words deaden the feelings.. at least sometimes.

Maybe writing happier words will help... no good living in the what's been and gone.. better to look at the clouds and watch them floating into the future

Your words are tragic and almost masochistic... time to heal now.. do you think..

[Nely Amorim]

it's hard not to understand the power of unrequited love, but don't let anyone have that power over you. I totally understand & empathise. But you have love to give and it will be cherished by someone someday. Don't give up on it, I didn't. :) good write..

[rachel <3]

i konw how you feel
i have done the same thing to myself

[Brianna Brie]

This is an extremely emotive write. It is explosive in its ability to grasp the reader. Splendid work!

[AMetaphoricalSoul]

this poem hit me very hard for a reasons I don't know why. It just seems so powerful. Amazing. I love it.

[poet2angels (lynda)]

So very sad ....Great emotion here, and you have too much love inside to
waste it dying now! I hope you find love again and it blooms forever...
TY for entering!

Lynda

[Cliff Rhodes]

I like the emotional catharthis, this expression of abandonment, venting of desperation, and really climactic ending as it builds and builds up until the invitation of death in the end. However, that being said, to me, Love is a spirit and skips and dances and plays from one being into and through another. So, thinking that Love can only be just human, limits your creativity and eventually depression will run its course and will not sustain you. I would rather see what incredible memory of that beauty and experience caused you to write in this dark mood. Can you share that with us?

[C.T. Bailey]

You have a certain mastery of romantic pain. This is another powerful expose' of the hurt that sears your heart. My hope for you is one of happiness and peace...I'm sorry you hurt so bad....
Todd