Grown & Strong

This is part true part make believe

I feel like going over there to that house and losing my kool.

 

I have a tool.

I have the heart.

 

I am not afraid.

 

But there is common sense.

If I hurt him, I hurt myself. 

 

Truth is, I feel like punching something till there is No fist left.

I could just get up right now and go over to that house.

The phone is dead.

I wish I had his head…

C’mon I’m not crazy. I almost had that fool’s baby.

I deserve a phone call. I deserve a ring. I deserve sympathy…See me?

You see me crying?

Finding reasons to fear the worst

The first burst was drained

Then I turned again to gain

And a gain I resented the love, the consequence of saying love

And Calling love’s name

 

He came and he went

 

I was broke I was spent

I laughed. I drank. I ate

It was good

I was good

I felt great

 

I feel like going over there right now and losing my muthafreakin kool

 

I don’t even cuss nomo because of that fool

And the “n” word is OUT of my vocab

Man…amazing

 

I have to step back and look at my self

Wow

It’s a shame how I have changed

 

Its not like I’m new to this game

But the difference is

This time

I am grown

 

And even though you are gone, I hold on to the love I still feel

I cant go to that house

Nah, I cant go

Because I respect your choices, I respect your space, I…

I love you...

fool,

 

I love you.

Reviews

[THE LOST ROSE]

Wow I got a spoken word feel, are you a spoken word artist? I know this bought the house down if you are. I couldn't read it any other way. I love the conversation you are having with yourself, its real. This piece has mad flavor and it is like nothing else I ever read on this site. When you get a chance check out "I Still Love...Love" or "Waiting, Wet Dreaming & Writing Poetry". Those are two pieces I do at venues around the city.

[Pax Analog]

Tight! Rhythmically astute as breathing.

Very cool the way you tranformed the venom of amorous frustration into the nectar of personal maturation.

Excellent work, relevant to everyone's experience. Cheerz!

[Silent Kim aka mizmetap..]

Nicely written, it flows smoothly and spits venom well. Our first reaction is revenge and then sensibility sets in. good expression.

Thank you for entering my contest and good luck to you.

[KUFU]

BEAUTIFUL.

Exceptionally beautiful. The interplay between love and hate, indecision and decision...wonderful. The stuff that poets and poems are made of.
Being grown usually resolves these contradictions, but being a poetess, your allowed. :-)

This goes to my favorite!