My Prayers

God.
Please.

Fix it
Take it away
I don't care anymore

Killing myself will send me to Hell
But is that one any worse than the one I live daily?
Worse than the endless screams and panic that consume my life?
Because I can't take this

Is it a sin to not love?
Because maybe I'm already falling
Is there any way to pull myself up now?
I might just give in

I love you and I'm trying
But everything goes wrong
Everything I say is wrong
The people around me built walls I can't push down
I'm trapped
And I want out

Let me out

Please.
God.

-A