gun upon my chest

I thought you loved me, and that you could finally see,

 we are meant to be together.

 But one day changed all of that forever. 

 

The night we were together didn’t last that long,

 looking into each others eyes, now all of that’s gone. 

 I thought you had finally loved me the way that I loved you. 

I believed all this thinking it was true. 

 

 Less than a week later on a warm summer day,

I was walking around and heard a familiar voice say,

“ I love you, and you mean everything to me.”

I turned around knowing I wouldn’t want to see.

 

There, in the arms of the only person I could love, was another girl.

  All this time I thought it was only him and me. 

Tears come to my eyes,

and everything, I can't see. 

 

Running home, never turning around to look back,

 the only thing I can see is my whole world turning black. 

I run in my room and lock the door.

Not knowing what do to I fall on the floor. 

 

I don’t know what to do, but now I realized,

I’m giving up everything I have for you. 

 I reach under my bed and pull out a gun,

all of this because you’re out having fun. 

 

 I leave a note saying,

 “ To the guy I love, you know who you are,

forever I love you, you brought me this far.

And now I give you my life, knowing I’ll never be your wife.

You always told me not to run,

but because of you I'm standing here holding this gun.” 

 

 I stand up by my bed,

I raise the gun slowly to my head.

I stop right there and start to realize.

I take another breath as tears come to my eyes.

 

 Why shoot myself in the head when that will give me a chance to live?

 Why not shoot myself in the heart where you hurt me the most,

 and tore my life apart? 

 

I pull the trigger, breathing my last breath. 

The rest of the world is up to you,

do what you think is best. 

 

To show you I’d do anything for you,

and that I’d give you, and now, I leave you my best. 

Now I lay on the floor with a gun upon my chest.

Reviews

[Deborah Leah Krempa]

Tragicly sad, well penned. Thank you for sharing. Debileah