How was I to know

A Poem by Moonchild

God please forgive me for I was born in a world of sin, pain and imprefection. How was I to know that lttle girl with issues would grow up to be a woman with deep resentment of her past, present and future.

How was I to know the reason why my father didn’t stay around to raise me.

Why I search for him in different men who abuse my love.

How was I to know that every woman could be me.

God please forgive me for I have cursed many times against others and myself.

How was I to know that my actions would hurt others when I was told she didn’t matter.

How was I to know her tears were because of me when he told me she was nothing.

How was I to know that every woman could be me.

God please forgive me for I am a woman still carrying the burndes of past hurt around.

How was I to know that it would damage me.

How was I to know it would lower my self esteem.

How was I to know it would cause me to be bitter even to those who love me.

How was I to know that every woman could be me.

God please forgive me for I am a slave of my present.

How was I to know that he own me every time I gave him power over me.

How was I to know that his beatings didn’t meant he love me.

How was I to know that his jealousy was the cause of my insecurities.

How was I to know that every woman could be me.

God please forgive me before I become a woman of endangerment.

Before I let the sorrows of my life become every woman story.

Before I leave my morals, self worth and happiness at the foot stool of my enermies.

Before my fakeness means that I am real and my realness means that I am not hip enough.

Before I become the role model of future geneterations.

God please forgive me before I become extinct.

Before I lose my value and I never become a lady of respect

A wife of honor and a mother of righteouness.

Mostly importantly for me to love my self first to always

remember that I am a woman and every woman could be me.

© 2012 Moonchild

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MOON

Stunning write , poignant and painful , being able to see how our past traps us , repeat mistakes seek solace in the wrong places.There for the Grace of God....