can I get over you?

The hurt is still fresh

The last words still have the the capability to make me bleed

Many times I tired and convinced my self that I am over you

but still those words occupy some tiny,hidden space in my mind

still I can't let go

so tonight I have decided to never let go

The mistake will no longer be regarded as one

The pain was worthy enough for heart fluttering moments of my life

I used to ask my self,was it a mistake? I knew all along that am going to get hurt

but that possibility itself attracted me to you.I wanted to give you the power of destroying me

And still I regard those 2 years as the most beautiful period of my life

I believed in keeping my self safe ,but some tiny part of mine always wanted to meet the darkest part of me and when you came,you extracted that self of mine.And both of them met.And the dark part won the battle

Then came the madness,that phase when I was ready to destroy my self for you

And then the inevitable happened

But today am no longer sorry for it.I am grateful that I gave my self chance to be happiest that I have ever been

I don't want to get over you.I don't know how to

I wanted to forgive my self.And I did

I was concentrating on tears it brought,while it was all about the smile

so from today onwards,instead of thinking about "what ifs",I will think about  those moments which were worth the pain that they brought

I forgive myself

And this eliminates the need of getting over you.

And this is how I get my closure

Reviews

[FateDictates]

so sad sweet and honest at the same time and I could not help but smile as we've all been here before..

[n14n74]

thank you so much for your review

[Zoey M]

very nice..such a beautiful thought...

[n14n74]

thank you so much

[n14n74]

Very emotional... thought provoking and the raw truth of that moment of decision that you faced and answered. The pain... worth while in the moments you remember will help later to realize the largeness of the joy when it finds you once more.

[n14n74]

Thank you so much for your review