Being Diagnosed

Ive recently been diagnosed with depression and anxiaty and while it does explain a lot for me it also makes a lot of issues in my head because i really put up mental blocks to things like this.

im falling apart
piece by piece
stitch by stitch
little by little
knowing very well
there's nothing i can do
but sit back and watch
watch as im torn
limb from limb
as my conscience
and my morality
wither away
into nothing
and even the fake smile
ive been hiding behind
for so long
ceases to exist
but the worst part is
knowing too late
that this was my problem
that this is why
i was always so upset
suffocating others with my
paranoia
finding out only now that im alone
that im going to be slowly smothered
by my mental disease

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Sometimes Doctors are the crazy people. Stress and fear is part of life. Just need to control the paranoia. Need to find purpose and reason for life. Can't allow the small things to slow you down. Years ago they said I was crazy. The Doctors gave me medicine. It made me sick. I started to train for marathons and never touched any medicine. People with too much energy and too mush vision can feel and see turmoil and sadness. Just believe in yourself and keep going forward. Writing became my peace also. A excellent poem. You made me think.
Coyote

[melissa]

Love the poem

[Ashleigh]

Your poems are so beautiful. And the fact that this was a personal one made it just that little bit more so.

A sad topic, but beautifully written. You express your emotions well

[Jake Donald Stephens]

I've been diagnosed with basically everything that can possibly be wrong with a person.
However, I've come to believe that pseudo sciences are bullshit.
Accepting myself was the hardest thing. After that, everything else got easier.
But everybody is different. That's why psychology and psychiatry are unreliable: there's no one set of rules that apply to everyone.
Try to figure out what you want from life, and focus on achieving it. That's the most universal advice I know of.