12 Hours later

Love and heartbreak can be hard at times and here is a piece

12 hours later I'm still going insane

Seeing you already having fun is messing with my brain

I can't tell if you're thinking about me non stop

Or you don't want to pull over your thoughts and I'm the cop

This s**t ain't easy at all I'm gonna fall

But I have to be strong and I have to be tall

Because to you I don't wanna seem small

I'm toughing it out and I'm just getting by

Because you're the only person that can make my heart fly

I tried to sleep last night I promise you I did

But the high got me fucked up and my thoughts don't got a lid

I can have the fun girl I can do that anytime

But I always have that piece of my heart that's outta line

I'm happy to see you having fun with your friends it's all good

And I'm still deciding if this is something that I should

Be doing right now it's f*****g me all up

When head is in one place and my heart is in another

To be honest after a while apart I think we need each other,

But of course it's only been a day and I'm still keep going

But I'm just letting you know how my heart keeps showing

In my mind the races are going off the wall

And it got more thoughts than people in a shopping mall

I'm in my own insane asylum and I'm therapist

When I first met you I never pictured this

Now I slowly grow more and more insane with every second that you're gone

It doesn't mean I can't be without you you're just the one,

That can make me happy on a dime

And every time that I rhyme

reminds me of my prime when I wanted to go out and shine.....

But, now I sit here so alone it feels like a crime

This isn't to make you feel bad it's how I feel

I can't just can't rip you away like a banana peel

You're beautiful and delegate like a peach

And you're softer than the beautiful sands on the beach

Being without you for this long is making me like this

I don't know if I'd read it to you because you might make you pissed

This is just to show you that you're already being missed

The good nights and the good mornings texts being sent

After this breakup I'm really feeling bent

And that wish on the plane yesterday I hope you made one

Because the one I made I hope it's to become

And I wonder what did this girl wish for

For us to be happy whatever?

Or to be happy together?

I'm still crazy about you and everything that you do

We needed to come back to earth to see option one or two

High as f**k and not a sense of a clue

If you think about me as much as I think of you

This poem is flowing out me like steady faucet

Still got the love notes in the back of my pocket

Girl I can't tell if you feel better without me or not it's been 24 hours

And I'm going to have to do my own thing no matter how bad the showers

But right now I'm not in a good place I'm all fucked up

Because the thought of another man someday man I should just shut up

You probably think I'm pathetic you probably thing I'm a fool

Because I'm the kid that  can't swim and the thoughts of you are a pool

And I jumped in so I can get it all back

But all I'm doing is drowning in thoughts and everything's going all black

And bang I wake up and it's 7:09

I've never woken up this early at this time

My minds fucked up in a million different ways

And it hasn't even been a couple days

Being happy with me isn't the problem it's the conflicts

And the fights and s**t got tied behind us like bricks

And we dragged and dragged that s**t out and never let it go

We should of settled our fights and just let it flow

And now we think being not together is the way to be

And I'm just here  waiting for us to see

After we broke up we joked up and laughed like nothing was going on

But then you stop and realize that you feel like a pawn

I haven't texted you yet to see if everything last night was alright

And I'm sure it was with the snapchat I saw last night

You look like being with your friends really helped

And all I did was blow smoke and my heart yelped

Now my heart is busted open like a can

I can't  blow the thought of you away like a fan

My heart is torn that I can't call you mine

and of course something like that would fade in due time

And That's so fucked to think

That the longer it goes it will fall though the drain in the sink

All the times and fun that we had

Is only a memory and not I thing i currently have

I can't begin to tell you how bad I want this back

But what can I do it's only if we both say that

And I hope that wish comes true

because I'm sure it was that I can be together with you.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Ethereal flower]

I love this poem, your rhymes are insane and I love the flow when I read it!

[Neythan Cardoso]

Im just here to make an impact on everyone who reads my work, its the best feeling in the world knowing people feel this way