Ramble

ignore grammer

I’m trying to get my thoughts together

And think of s**t that makes me feel better

It’s hard for people to understand

How you feel like a failure when they think you got a plan

Success is in high demand

And I don’t think I can fufill the quota

I feel my morale getting lower

 

So sick of myself I can’t stand it

Life after death

I’ve already planned it

It’s hard to see myself from others point of view

As something so fragile yet beautiful too

Need to take the time to love myself or at least make an effort

My self loathing  tendencies are what I’d like to sever

Stuck in my head

a cerebral prison

Thoughts firing off like a well-oiled piston

 

Can I get some quiet?

Maybe enjoy some silence

Be numb and ignorant to all that I feel

Get rid of emotions I try to conceal

Take these antidepressants

Keep popping these pills

And wait for the pivotal moment

Where I lose what’s left of my will.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Any woman who can write with such passion can do anything!!! You know the whole alphabet, A to Z and back again and,. what's more in groups of whatever.. so.. why condemn self to such sad, sad words, dear Fanicia.

' Need to take the time to love myself or at least make an effort .. ' You've said it there, in a simple sentence.. not many could do that so magnificently!

Get back to me, please. I want to see a shining figure with a bubble of thought floating from her head saying. 'Look out world. Tis me!'

[Fanicia E.]

Thank you! The words maybe be sad, but that was how I felt at the time. Everything I feel, I feel with great intensity. I'm sometimes a cynic, but more of a realist than anything. This is the best way for me to expressive negative feelings, so if it works, it works lol. I appreciate the read and your review!

[emmajoy]

So hope things are better for you now.. and there more smiles around your heart. :)

[Fanicia E.]

idk about that, but i'm still going. thanks!

[ChrisTheWriter]

Very powerful keep it up!

[Fanicia E.]

Thank you!

[Anjali]

This poem is really full of strong emotions, and it's amazing. Keep writing, it will make you feel better.☺

[Fanicia E.]

Thank you for the kind words and sage advice!