One Day At a Time

My Father is battling cancer, this is something I wrote to release some of my feelings towards the current battle.

One day at a time…Cancer straps him to the hospital beds, claws its way onto my chest and sits there tearing me apart. I didn't prepare myself for the weakest point of my life, but no one ever could. I didn't know that everything good that's ever happened in my life would be emptied out by this.

For my whole life, my Dad has been the strongest man I know, and my Mom- The strongest woman I know. I watch them pack up their belongings in the house I grew up in; I watch the bills pile up on top of the buildings of stress in their eyes. I lay in the uncertainty every night before I fall asleep; I try to dream of a miracle for tomorrow. I wake up gasping for air sometimes because even my dreams won’t let me escape reality anymore.

I try to be strong, and hold myself together. I try so damn hard every second of every day, I try to help when I can, for he is…and always will be my superman. They tell me to take it one day at a time as they are doing, and I try...I try so hard… I still pray to take every ounce of sickness away, I remember that I started when I was about 10 years old and started to understand what his Cancer was. Over the years, I haven’t stopped. I regret not being further in my life-For all I’ve ever wanted is to make them proud. Every couple days the pain that builds up in my heart comes out in quickened tight breaths, dizzy spells, and sobbing. I still manage to put a smile on every single day, and do my best to help everyone I come in contact with, to have a good day.

One day at a time, I battle with myself to keep my head above my own health bills, and other bills. One day at a time, I push as hard as I can to be positive, stay strong, have patience with self-centered negative idiots, and make my family proud. I love you, Dad & Mom. You adopted me from birth, and have given me the best life, helped me become everything I am today, taught me right from wrong, and the amount of inspiration, love, and pure strength I have gotten from you both has made me the luckiest woman alive. I’m here for you both, till the end of time. You’re my world, and I am so proud that you are my parents. I am so unconditionally grateful for everything you both have done for me. I love you, to the moon and back.

Author's Note

Ignore grammer problems, ect. I hope you enjoy. <3

Reviews

[The Butterfly Writer]

You called this a poem? I think it's more appropriately a story, but that might just be me. I've had family members with cancer, and die of cancer too, so I kind of know what that's like. I like how the bold adds emphasis to just those lines. Well done.

[Nellie Johnson]

I wasn't quite sure what to call it. Thank you very much.

[The Butterfly Writer]

No problem :)

[B.J]

Incredible words written from the heart. Devotions strongly felt great work