Changing Changes You.

I used to be so shy and timid.

You would not believe that was me?

Now I am straight to the point,

open and very honest and direct.

I am so frustrated, angry and mad

as hell.

At the way, life is going for me

and my man.

I feel i am turning into a bitter person

and sad.

Let alone so depressing to be around.

Nothing like the way I used to be

upbeat, happy and kind.

And would do anything for anyone.

I just want to run away and never

look back. And I can't turn my back

on my husband or life.

I try with all my might to be strong,

determined and outspoken.

And get things down for him.

To make him feel better,

content, happy and not suffer.

But sadly I just can't even do that properly.

I am a failure.

And a sad lonely person myself.

Who turns to poetry and journals

to lighten my  weary load and

hopefully to find some solace

and comfort in my outpourings on here

for me.

If along the way. My words Let anyone

someone see they are not alone. That is

nice to know. As I know we all suffer in life.

Some much more than others.

As I would never turn my back on anyone.

I am just not like that. Even in my own

heart of hearts I know me.

Reviews

[wordman]

you are depressed,we do the best we can with what we have,life is hard and making you bitter

[Onlyme]

Ron, just so feed up, Wayne is ill, hospital not sure what is going on. As he feel numbs his body. And his family. Don't care and it's only me. Helping him. 24/7. With no support or help from anyone. And my feelings are so raw and bad at present. I am trying to keep me above drowning basically. Thanks for writing to me. I hope your okay.

[wordman]

if i could help,i would be glad to