When Nobody Knows

Sigh

When nobody knows

It's easy to forget

All about the golden

All about the doors

And in comes darkness

And out goes the light

And in comes the bloodlust

And out goes the fight

Any fight

That I had left to refuse

The reality that everyone keeps telling me

Isn't there

The reality that everyone knows is there

And beware

It will consume you

It has

Consumed me

I am 

Emptiness

I am 

Shame

I am  

Lonely

I am

To blame

I am 

Pitiful

I am 

Doomed

I am pain

To me,

To you

When no one knows

my retinas grow cold

My heart pumps slower still

When no one knows how 

I wish I could sleep endlessly

By the drop

Of 

A pill