The Heartbreak Game

Read the title.

You: Hey, you’re on!

Me: Yeah, I just came.

You: Great, so usual chat?

Me: Sure, start the game.

 

Sometimes I wonder

About all the lies

I force myself to say

When avoiding your eyes

You told me there was no one

Who you could love now

After she broke your heart

So I hoped somehow

Even when we whispered

So often in the night

We laughed through the dark

And into the light

You still said you didn’t know

Your next girl to date

I simply nodded and grinned

Thinking I almost had our fate

But oh my dear friend

Our heart games led me astray

I thought maybe you were real

And would show me the way

But one cheery morning

After our texting all night

I glimpsed at my phone

And hoped with all my might

But I only had one message

And it wasn’t from you

And smiling I looked at it

Then thought it couldn’t be true

No it wasn’t possible!

It was from a friend

Who didn’t know of my love

But knew it hadn't come to an end

“We’re dating!”

It hauntingly read

It couldn’t be true!
Words spun in my head

A silent scream raged through me

I was being lied to by you

And now my friend’s “little crush”

Was making me question what’s true

“Congratulations”

I managed to type back

“Aw, thanks!” She responded

I began to crack

How could I be so foolish?

To ever think you loved me

How could I be so gullible?

Just a blind girl trying to see

Now I see it all unfolding before me

A map of the spider webbed roads

I see the past and the future

And your different personality modes

I hang my head in my hands

And cry three simple tears

For being lied to, used, and loving

To go along with our distant years

You’ve haunted my life for so long

And for some reason my heart

Throbs and aches so sharply

Every time I breathe when we’re apart

For the millionth time I tell myself

“It’s over. Goodbye.”

But I look up to the sky

And only wonder “Why?”

Was I your little game of heartbreak?

Or simply a pawn on your board

Well I guess it doesn’t matter

Because this round you scored

I’m not good at revenge

And anything I plan when I'm mad

Simply is rolled over by moments

Where I'm happy not sad

But by now I'm sick of

Gritting my teeth to smile

And trying to fool myself

That I’m happy for you while

Inside I am slowly dying

The lights in my eyes fading

The shine in my words decaying

And the whole world is simply playing

I believe in luck and in strategy

And I can take it slow

‘Cause when I strike I won’t fail

And now I’m sure I know

How to do what you’ve done to me

And show you the pain

Though I'm not honestly sure

What either of us will gain

A cruel little smile slid up my face

And then I began to text

Convincing myself of real and right

Only a tad unsure of what comes next

 

You: Hey, what’s up?

Me: I’m glad you came!
You: Okay, wanna play?

Me: Sure, the heartbreak game. . .

 

 

Reviews

[luna11]

I like it :)
It's emotional.. well written..
My only criticism is that it started off with a really good flow and rhythm, but then as the poem went along, the flow was kind of ruined...sounded like you were rapidly spilling out your thoughts without thinking about how the poem sounded..but then it improved towards the end and your flow was back :-)
it's a really good poem, but you might want to try and polish the middle bit.
Lovely write, well done xx

[Shia]

This I really liked, your ryming is smooth and it has raw emotion to the core!

[Mirabella]

Love it! It's relatable and realistic. It's sad, but the speaker shows strength by deciding not to give up towards the end and to keep playing, and that is admirable.

xx

[DrD]

Tlhis has nice flow and concise wording to get the message clearly across. The word selection is good and the conclusion rather dramatic. This is a good work expressing betrayal or maybe even someone foolish themselves.

[Summer'sBreeze]

Wonderful write.
Simply amazing.

[quinfinn]

texting makes it too easy to lie, too easy to say things you don't mean and too easy to hurt someone without realizing it. you have demonstrated beautifully what those hazards are herein and the poem is wonderful. very good write

[Just Some Dreamer]

I love this poem. So realistic

[Tabitha t]

very well written and I usually hate readin long poetry but this kept me intrigued. well done and very emotional

[Who Cares]

Rather lengthy, The rhyme scheme is wonderful and everything flows. I like how you relate the first stanza to the last.

[MissEpic2902]

Wow... this was beautifully emotional, i can tell you poured your soul into this piece!

[Wolfwind Words]

And then you find out that your chat messages had be intercepted the entire time and you were really conversing with an alien being 120 million light years away, who didn't understand half the english language... But you only find out when the saucer descends from the heavens on a dark stormy night and abducts you. Then when you finally figure out what had happened, you club the alien over the head with a glow stick that you always have in your pocket and take over the ship, landing it in Washington DC scaring the entire population as they assume that we're being invaded. But finally it all gets sorted out, after hours of questioning under a bright and hot lamp in some underground bunker. During that time, your face shows up on the news and the guy, whom you were supposed to be chatting with in the first place shows up and you find out that he was a super rich multi billionaire with 8 wives and 52 children...
Such is life... in the crazy world we live in. :D

Thanks for sharing your ink! It was very inspirational!
Aaron

[Owlgirl]

HAHAHA!! Yeah!!! thanks :)