Always Have Been, Always Will Be

How painful it is to fall in love with your best friend.

Always Have Been, Always Will Be

 

I have always been your one best friend.

It has been so long that I can’t even comprehend.

Secrets and lies " all of these we shared,

I even showed you my underwear just to be fair.

 

But things have changed, and love - you’ve had your share,

While I was left alone, still feeling self-conscious at your stare.

Crushes and girlfriends, you told me you had it all planned,

It crushed me, but I cheered you on as if I was a fan.

 

Heartbreaks and heartaches, I was there when you had them,

I picked up the pieces, mended them and treated your heart like gem,

Hoping that one day it would heed my own heart’s call,

But in the end, you weren’t there to catch me when I fall.

 

Oh, I remember one time, you loved with all your heart and soul,

With a girl who was way different from me as a whole.

I was a witness of how your love blossomed like a flower,

But she left you, feeling cold, drenched in rain shower.

 

That night, I was there for you like I always have been,

But you pushed me aside and treated me as if I were a sin.

You told me you didn’t need me because I would never understand,

How it feels to be hurt since I’ve never loved a man.

 

Clenching my fist and gritting my jaw,

I fought real hard not to let you know.

But my heart betrayed me and it screamed so loud,

Way more than I allowed, like it was talking to a crowd.

 

Silence filled the room as you stayed still for a minute,

You looked into my eyes, my heart skipped, oh damn it.

I thought this was it, but my heart fell apart,

When you laughed and thanked me for playing the best friend’s part.

 

I grimaced but laughed with you, not knowing what to do,

Do I tell you what’s true or just leave my heart feeling blue?

But I realized I was dead tired and I wanted all of this to end,

For to you, I will always be, and will only be, your one best friend.

Author's Note

Woot. This is my second poem! Yay me. Please tell me what you think about it. Thank you! :)

Awarded "1st Place" in the contest "Poem of anything"
Awarded 'Best Love Poem' in the Love Poems Contest.

Reviews

[Dahlia Phoenix]

This poem was sad. Period. Many situations occur where we fall in love with our best friends (I mean in general) and they fall in love with the wrong person. They never notice what's in front of them. When it comes to that, we pretty much have to let go to avoid more pain. Other than that, great poem.

[styxfan]

Another amazing write. This has to be one of the most painful things anyone can go through

[Drew]

A lot of suffering here,Anyone who reads should feel the sense of loss with the one person that got away in their life. Magnificent

[Arielle Ann]

this was lovely...and I can connect with it like hell ( I have another write on this note-"why did you")...the rhyme was perfect, the story was neat...but it was the essence which hit me the most (:

[Nish...]

Wow, it really is a beautiful, but sad poem. You've captured the emotions and transformed them into words beautifully.

[The Winter Grey]

This one was *really* good. I feel like you captured a real, tangible friendship, and the accompanying hardships with downbeat grittiness. Anyone who has ever loved a best friend who either couldn't or wouldn't recipricate those feelings should relate instantly... I certainly did. Your tone was consistent, and your diction creative. This is possibly my favorite poems by you so far, tied with "101 Days."

[frozensakura]

you are an amazing and talented writer, i love your poems. this is very sad but has great emotion throughout the poem.
-chole(:

[pamzilla. &hear..]

1. I'm pretty happy to say that I've never fallen in love wiht my best friends, seeing that they've all been girls . (I could never tell a guy what goes in my sick, twisted and quite perverted mind .)
2. I absolutely, and whole-heartedly, love this, poem . :D
♥

[TWISTED NIGHTMARE]

you are an amazing writer...i love this poem so much more to the fact that i can relate...but still it was beautiful, heartwarming yet heartbreaking...amazing write

[Eagle Cruagh]

A beautiful poem. I thoroughly enjoyed
it.
You are a gifted writer.
It is your mind that
creates this world
----- Buddha

[13ReasonsWhy]

ABSOULUTLY AMAZING!!!!! ...... As usual. :) you are awesome writer and this really touched my heart. :)