The Calm Before The Storm

Such peace, such tranquility

It’s been a while since I’ve known such things

As you’ve always rather enjoyed wilfully

Flying off into that fiery rage of yours

 

Why do I feel such a strange calmness?

Am I really this calm, or is it the calm before the storm?

Is it the calm I have learned to harness

Before approaching you with a request

 

It never used to be this way, never did I feel

Like I have to be careful of every next thing I say

I still wonder when everything became so real

And when our happiness began to fade away

 

So I come to you, I come to you now

With one final thing that I have left to ask

Please just don’t turn this into a row

It doesn’t need to be more painful than it is

 

All I ask is time away, time to heal

Time to contemplate all that has passed

Maybe you think that I have a heart of steel

But I don’t, now that all my hopes have been dashed

 

So here I am, still thinking about what to say

How to phrase it so you won’t get mad

Still sitting here, day after day

And nothing I come up with seems to be okay

 

Please don’t be sad, I just want you to understand

That I can’t pretend that I’m not still hurting

Things didn’t go the way that I had planned

And with each passing day I’m afraid

 

Afraid to talk to you, afraid to share with you

Afraid that your negativity toward me will develop

I just want all the frustration that we have accrued

To subside so that we can be friends once again