Worth feeling

My favorite thing I have written so far

I let my heart feel no feelings at all
I will never again watch myself fall
Hope is not a friend that I feel is worth keeping
when pain is the only reward that I'm reaping
I would spend my time hiding in a daze
Averting my eyes from anyone's gaze
After all of this time my heart still feels marred
But in reality it has just faded to scarred
But when I'm with you my heart is a flutter
But remembering the pain I am starting to shudder
Do I allow myself to feel vulnerable again
And reveal my scars that are still on the mend
Or do I just hide and be safe in my bubble
Ignoring that my world is turning to rubble
Is that even a life that is worth living
Forgiving a past that's been unforgiving
I guess I'll move on and fend for myself
I will take my heart down from up on that shelf
I lose myself in this moment we're stealing
And now I see this is a pain that's worth feeling

Author's Note

I know again and mend don't rhyme...but it fits too well to care to change.

Reviews

[Talismanic]

mesmerising. this touches on everything we face when we have been broken, trying to weigh up whether or not we can risk it all again. the rhyme and rhythm form a perfect progression, which makes the resolution all the more powerful.
it has been said that a life lived to the full is lived on the point of pain, as in, a life of self-preservation is not life at all but taxidermy. by going out on a ledge we will be exposed to pain head on, but we will not be desensitized to love, and so every 'fall' we suffer will not have been in vain. purely amazing write :)