Untitled: An Apology Unworthy

I know we'll never be the same,
And if I could take it back I would.
But what's happened between us will never change,
I just wish you understood.
I feel like a b***h straight out of Hell, 
I feel like you know all too well,
That those words I said, I didn't mean
I just want you to see.
I'm sorry for the things I said
And all the weight they held.
I wish I didn't say a thing...
Cause now I hate how it felt.
I want you to know no mater what
I hate what I've become.
Cause that girl I let you see that day
Was not who you'd come to love.
I wish you'd read this long and hard,
And understand just this..
Your an amazing person no matter what, 
And the only friend I'll miss... :/