why would i rather lie to myself

it's pretty bullshit

nothing that i say

 is what i want it to be

 nothing that i do

fills the purpose that i seek

 i feel weak and i am a liar

 why would i rather lie to myself

 

what the hell is going on

i hate what I’m writing

i want to abandon

the place in which I’m living

i feel  like falling

but my feet are stuck

on a standstill

and I’m stirring it with a stick

 

i don’t want things to make sense

they are easier that way

the pain is realer

my tea hotter

i would have to call the plumber

to fix the leaking sink

 

i would rather lie to myself

why would i do that

 

 

Reviews

[Alice Poésy]

Fantastically worded! This lack of understanding yourself and life is something which I share, and I found myself nodding along with your words. Sometimes I feel like I'm the biggest conman on the planet. I constantly wonder what's going on and if it will ever make sense, but also revel in the storm - which kind of doesn't make sense but I love it.

Loved the fourth stanza, it's so whimsical. Great poem! You have a very distinctive style and I love it.

[raven]

wow you are so kind! thank you for the insightful and encouraging words!!! ^_^

[Inject Positivity]

It reflects a kind of a confusion with life's different roads and aspects, believe me I have been there too... Your poem kind of relatable but I'm very much hopeful that all these confusion will pass away soon... I think you wrote it very well... Putting your mind and heart is what makes a writing the best...

Sincerely
Dhiman

[raven]

thank you for taking the time to write such a nice comment, i really appreciate your kindness.

[Inject Positivity]

You are welcome mate, you are kind too...