An ordinary girl.

An ordinary girl.

A Poem by Ella
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A girl's journey through life until she can take no more.

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When I try my best, I never succeed, 
I don't know what I want, not even what I need, 
I'm so lost right now, please can you help me?
I do not know what to do, can you not see?
I feel depressed and cry in bed at night,
Maybe I'd feel better if someone showed me the light, 
Sometimes I wish I could curl up into a ball, 
Sometimes I wish I wasn't visible at all,


I've thought about quitting, ending my life, 
I can't imagine it would give anyone too much strife, 
I have no motivation to carry on this way, 
I'm sure one day, I'll take myself away,
I must end this now or there'll be too much grief,
It's too late now to turn over a new leaf,

 

I am frustrated with myself,

And here I sit like a shelf,

I do not speak or dare to move,

I always feel like I have to prove

My worthiness of being here,

But I still make sure I stay clear,

I have learned to avoid things,

Even though inside it stings.

 

I cannot do anything to stop the pain,

I have tried cutting to the vein,

I want to die but I am truly scared,

Maybe I wouldn’t if someone cared,
Of course no one is to blame, 
That really is not entirely my aim, 

 

I want to get this message across...

There must be more people in a situation like me, 
Who are closed up and too scared to speak, 
These people need help and here is my cry, 
Now I must wait for my tears to dry.

 

I grab a tissue, make up has run down my face,

I quickly run and gather some thick lace,

I get the nearest chair,

And hang the lace in the air,

I attach the ends to the ceiling hooks,

I stand up on the chair and get one more look,

Of the world and my ordinary room,

Before I finally escape my doom.

 

I kick the chair and hear the wood crack,

Now I know there is no looking back,

I take my final breath,

Before my death,


And enter the world of perfection,

Where there is no such thing as rejection.    


 

 

 


© 2010 Ella



Author's Note

Ella
sorry about the length, the end is very dramatic though so I hope I kept your attention long enough to make it to the end ! (No pun intended)

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I think everyones felt like this at least once in their life, or will feel like this.
Its the inevitable. This was really something, and the length is not something to worry about. What's to worry about is to somehow get your reader to feel what you were feeling when you wrote this, or to get the feeling you wanted them to have. Honestly, this was a great poem. I look forward to reading more. :)

Posted 7 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.




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Wow! This is amazing, I love it.

Posted 6 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Jesus Christ this is a good poem, Wow, I love this piece. Fully rated.

Posted 2 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Beautiful work here and the length gives the story here that much more depth. I can really relate to this poem and think this way a lot. Seems like some days, no one is happy with anything I manage to do or take notice of any good things I may do, be it big or small. It's not easy to be tossed aside and ignored while others around you get noticed and praised for nearly doing nothing at all. They get all the attention, and for what? But each day, we must remember to be the best we can be for ourselves, not others. We have to make ourselves happy and accept ourselves for we allow others to. Giving up is honestly a temporary solution and a bad day isn't worth your life. Just take it one day at a time and there is potential for a good day, for finding the light at the end of the dark tunnel.

Posted 4 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

I really like the story it told. Too many people have felt this way and have been in this exact same position. I really enjoyed this. Thank you for sharing it :)

Posted 4 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

wow this is ah-mazing and i love the way the poem goes

Posted 4 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

It was remarkable, and I could literally feel the pain searing through me. the last stanza gave me the chills. I hope that I one day will see your work published.

Posted 4 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Wow... I feel the same way ALL the time. I don't know if it's a stage in life or what, but I feel like no one cares or is there to hear me out.

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Many people can't face life. I lost two brothers to suicide. No-one knew. They were strong but unable to face the daily battle of life. Life ain't easy. I believe we must find the good in what we do. The last line maybe true? No-one knows where we will end at. My brother are missed 22 years later. Many have took the blame. Including me. A excellent poem.
Coyote

Posted 6 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

Wow! This was incredible. The tension that you held throughout this piece was really quite extraordinary, and the dark and almost sombre mood was something that came as a result of that. I was a little hesitant about the rhyming at first, as I wasn't sure how it was going to work with the concept of the poem, but in the end, I thought that it was a pretty successful style, and that you executed it well right through to the end. The couplet at the very end of the poem was my favourite in the whole piece! Nice work,
~PaperHearts

Posted 6 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.


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