Problems of the heart

I’m scared to fall in love, scared to fall too fast, because every time I fall in love it never seems to last. I feel like I’m never good enough for the person I’m with, that I’ll let them down. That I will continue to f**k up, that I don’t deserve what I have. The last thing I want is someone to get hurt because of me but that continues to happen. I don’t know how to stop it. I don’t know how to let people in. My walls are too thick. My heart is too hard. I don’t trust people to see me broken. I put on a mask. I fake an identity everyday so I don’t get looks of pity from my friends or family. I don’t want them to see that I’m hurting. People say a guy breaks their heart. But when your own mother breaks it you don’t bounce back as easily. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know who to go to. So instead I stay in the corner quiet and fractured. I don’t let people in I push them out.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Ola]

I love this. I have been feeling like this for a short while and seeing it so simply stated is refreshing.

[Levi Levin]

Honest expression is a great start. You did just that. Good job!

[KCthelastboyscout]

A troubled poem from a troubled soul.you feel alone but you are not alone.others like myself will read this and understand.even more so for you.i hope things get better soon

[TwistedTwins]

This was C, btw. (And because we need at least 25 characters to submit something I'm adding this little line)

[TwistedTwins]

Damn, this was compelling from beginning to end. I think a lot of people feel this way, or at the very least I do! So you've found a soul sister in me lol. I feel like I'm always saying these things to myself like I don't trust people not to hurt me and I don't want people to put their trust in me because I will most likely hurt them and I don't want them to resent me for that. I'm sure some therapist would have fun unpacking that whole idea lol. But anyway, I appreciated this because it makes me feel less alone - and less crazy/selfish/pitiful. Thanks.