I Scatter My Soul

Drowned in a pool

Of tears

I just can’t stop

The pain eats away

At my soul

It’s almost as if

You were still here

But I know

That dream is impossible

 

All that’s left of me

Is a withering shell

Fragile and empty

I can’t forget

I’m trapped

In an invisible prison

Forcing myself to go back

Forcing myself to look

Forcing myself to remember

The mirage that was you

 

Trapped

Caged

And broken

Into a million little pieces

I can’t endure this

Eternal torture

A single moment more

I tear at my hair

My clothes

My whole being

Swallowed by flames

And so I scatter my soul into the wind

 

It’s better now

No regretting

No pain

No emotion

No feeling

None at all

 

After all

It’s better to be blind

To that world full of

Beautiful terror

 

Better to never have had it

Than to have a beautiful fantasy

Snatched away

 

You were there

For a fraction of a second

Looking at me with those eyes

You pitied me

You pitied

My torment an my tears

My pain of being different

Now you know

How strange I truly am

How I am not the same

 

But to you

I was just another creature

Another outcast

Without name or soul

Dead

And I had been

Before you came along

You made me feel alive and whole

For once in my life

 

You heard me

When my silent cries were only meant

For the dark of the night

You talked to me

While my voice was merely fit

To talk with the creatures of the marsh

You laughed with me

Cried with me

 

You promised

You promised you’d never leave

You promised you’d never forget me

You promised you’d set me free

But you lied

And I am the one

That pays for it

 

I tear myself to pieces

Tear up every memory

Every hope

Every dream

 

I tear up the sound of your voice

The sparkle in your eyes

I tear up every lie

Every unfulfilled promise

 

You don’t even realize

What you’ve done to me

For a moment

You gave me hope

And then you snatched it away

 

In promising to set me free

You’ve made me more imprisoned than

Before

 

And so I tear up

The world

Tear up

The sky

The sun

The moon

 

And I scatter it all

The pieces of my soul

I scatter it all

Into the wind

Reviews

[Dreamgirl23732]

Wow! The poem was so heartfelt, I felt every word.. Beautiful!

[jennifer little]

good job

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ooooooooh! that's messed up. its sad to have the biggest hopes demolished by disappointment. :( still you write beautifully :)

[SwagMaster]

This poem is so sad!! Loved it!!

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