Backwards Romance

This is simultaneously an explanation and an apology to the man who holds my heart.

As days pass by like pages in the wind, I eagerly await the end of this chapter,

Wishing I could skip ahead, to where you might one day be mine,

But tragically, our story isn’t solely one of romance.

Betrayal, regret, and desperation are also intertwined.

Regret is why I keep turning back to the beginning.

While I struggle to comprehend the ink, blurred by sorrow,

The memories seep forward into the focus of my mind,

Keeping me trapped in the past, unable to reach tomorrow.

How could I make you understand that he was only comedic relief?

The chambers of my heart hold not even one cell for him.

But loneliness, liquor, and lack of love had intoxicated my soul.

Though I longed for you, I let him trace every inch of my skin.

Let this be clear: I am not the victim. I admit my mistake through the veil of cursive,

Knowing full well that I am both the protagonist and antagonist of our desire.

My love might never seem veritable, since your deep brown eyes saw my injustice,

But I now have a mission: to eradicate our beginning with a passion of fire.

I will burn my love into your skin with words of compassion and acts of adoration,

So that I leave no doubt of my dedication for our possible eternity.

The prologue of insufferable pain will be impossible to recollect,

Because I will leave only ashes of what used to be.

Author's Note

All critiques are welcome!

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

This is poetry dear Rosie.
"But loneliness, liquor, and lack of love had intoxicated my soul.
Though I longed for you, I let him trace every inch of my skin.
Let this be clear: I am not the victim. I admit my mistake through the veil of cursive,
Knowing full well that I am both the protagonist and antagonist of our desire."
The above lines could stand alone. Sometimes something is enough. Drink, dark nights and the wanting fingertips of skin again skin. Just what we need. No weakness in the poem. You made me want to write. Thank you Rosie for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Rosie Brooklin]

Thank you so much! I'm glad that stanza stood out to you, and so flattered that I was able to motivate you to write for yourself!

[Chris]

This one doesn't feel ...fair. OR fully defined for the content and context.

[Rosie Brooklin]

Would you please elaborate?

[Chris]

Why would the other be angry (or jealous?) if no commitment had been made? OR was a commitment in force? Was one being played by another or assumed to be playing another? and so on...

[Chris]

or better yet - this poem is not the place to speak...a note perhaps?

[BBP]

Absolutely love how you used the comparison to a book!

So elegantly written.

Really dig this one!

[Rosie Brooklin]

I'm glad you appreciate that idea! I try to be creative when it comes to my poems and stories.If you have a particular fancy for comparisons such as that, you might want to check out my poem, "Unrequited Love". Thanks for your kind review!

[OneAmongstMany]

Powerful stuff. Great use of imagery and description. I love the last two lines especially. Keep it up!

[Rosie Brooklin]

Thank you!