Just painfully shy

Holding and cling on to this piece of shirt,

a life line in a middle of a raging river.

Dragging my legs along,

I know what have to be done

reaching the counter... only to find

the cashier busy filling in sheets of paper

 

Freeing a hand, exchanging its grip

a moment of fear shoot through me.

 

Hold on tight to you...

in a small voice I asked you,

“Will you help me pay?”

while pushing the shirt and money

into none other then your hands

 

With a shrug and an annoyed look,

you started lecturing me again.

“Stand on your own two feet...

Its your right!

Go pay for it yourself...”

The words wash over me,

sending me reeling

when I am already unstable

 

Stumbling, blinded with tears

I walk forward... Paying blindly

 

Not daring, not knowing

how to explain that...

 

I am just painfully shy

 

Reviews

[Aekmy]

Very honest. Very just out there. Congrats on your win, you deserved it.

[THE LOST ROSE]

Such and honest yet very creative write. Painfully shy with skills. This piece again is great. I am glad I am ending my day reading your material. I will wake up better and inspired.

[Johnny Westbrook]

you expressed her shy emotions very well. Your character reminds me of someone that I use to know who was very VERY shy and kind of acked like your character. Good write and Good read.

[Enigma]

Oh! Such a bad experience. I can sense it I've found myself tackling such situations for a long time. Thankfully, I'm not that much shy anymore. It's hard for shy people to approach unknown people, left alone ask for their help.Many a times, these strangers create a very bad impression on shy people and they never again even dare to talk to any unfamiliar person.
Whoops! I went away from the topic....
The poem is great.Skillfully written and conveying all your feeling in a very impressive and realistic way...
Great Write!!!

[darkgurl]

Such a hurtful experience it must have been, wonderfully expressed.

[SadEyedLady]

This is a really wonderful piece of writing. I completely identify. I used to not be able to buy things for myself because i couldn't face people. Even now sometimes i just dont feel like dealing with people even to buy something because its still stressful. And i get feeling embarassed when people don't understand why you're being so shy.

Keep up the good work!

[Vatsayayana]

Ohhhh sweetheart! ~warm hugs~
Your words are too perfect. Years ago I was exactly the same way.
I was painfully shy as I child, terrified to even talk on the phone, order my dinner from the waiter.
It was horrid! ~grin~ I still bury deep seated shyness. I've just managed to hide it well. :0)
I love seeing this side of you.
This is truly exquisite and so personally appealing.
What a wonder you are!
Brava!

[ShadowWolf]

Very nice! Now I am wondering is this all about you?

[Bhavya Kaushik]

oh!! I really felt bad for you, I mean facing any situation like this is indeed such a sad thing to happen..You must have been embarrassed... But then see, it gave you the inspiration to write such a beautiful piece of writing...which is so unique..Till date, I haven't read any other writing like this..This is really very unique.
Very straight! and beautifully penned :}