Broken Friendships

I look around the table at a group of women I once knew.

What happened to that bond I used to have too?

I want that bond of friendship back.

But it’s a feeling of now which I lack.

Something has gone seriously wrong,

For these women around me who once made me strong,

Have become strangers,

And I recognize the dangers.

It’s to place I do not wish to return,

It’s that brick wall that will never burn.

So I retreat…into my mind, into my soul.

Yet there’s nothing to fill the void, the hole.

Words of love have turned to hate.

So I must suffer an inevitable fate.

I have made some wrong turns.

But isn’t that how one learns?

God forbid I make a mistake.

They think everything I’ve done is fake.

I try to the best that I can,

Yet they turn on me when I’m the one who needs a helping hand.

It has taught me what I already knew.

There is no one to go to.

Actions tell the truth whereas words can sometimes lie.

And I’m fed up with the sensitivity and just want to cry.

There is a method to my madness.

It’s a result of all my hurt and sadness.

I thought I could mend what was broken but it is I who am broken.