Afraid

A night at an Arvo Part performance. First time i'd seen my ex in a while, we decided to try to be friends, and I was finding it very difficult.

 Soft light paints you,

Temptation fills us both.
Your arm against me,
Electricity to my lips,
A spark to your bone.

Touching, holding, rocking
As we once did.
Uncontrollable need for you
which must be controlled.
I am afraid to look at you.

Memories squeeze my chest,
Pulling me back.
I can no longer breathe.
Hidden, shaking,
Pining for your skin.

Stabs of you fill me,
Pinning me down
Like you once did.
Tacky lips, comforting scents
Surrounding me, all of me.

I'm sorry I didn't come.
I'm sorry that I lied.
But if it's any consolation,
I wanted to.

A bell peals softly,
Barely there, like I am,
As I imagine your eyes
While I stare at your hands,
Afraid to look at you.

Reviews

[Taja B.]

This is a really good poem. It's well written and I know exactly how you feel. I mean, sometimes, it's so hard to control the feelings for a certian someone that you are still attracted to emotionally, but you know by controlling your feelings for the significant other, it's for the best.

But anyways, I really enjoyed this poem and I could totally relate to it.

Nice job.:)

[Sparrow]

Been there, done that, and I wouldn't put myself through that again if someone paid me. You have my sympathy madame. Wonderful write you took me there and that's the highest praise anyone can get from my perspective.

[Blackbirdsong]

This is wonderfully written even without the musical score that you suggested. My only issues, the elipses again and again not necessary. Your writing and your voice is so strong that you barely need any punctuation at all. Gorgeous.

[Timely Disposition]

Very somber and honest piece. Initially I felt bad reading it because it was from a teenager. Then I dug deep into my memory banks and remembered...OH YEAH...sex happened then too.

Anyway, I really loved the slow dance feel of this piece. I also loved that, because it was a poem, I kept looking for the analogy you were trying to make. The more I read it, I realized, you were just saying exactly what you meant. The best part about that, is that you managed to keep that in a poetic form, none-the-less.

And also, INCREDIBLE, job on the end of this piece. These are my favorite lines that I have read from you so far.

The bell peals softly,
Barely there, like I am,
As I imagine your eyes,
While I stare at your hands,
Afraid to look at you.

Bravo!

[Bradley Shawn Mcquigg]

I like it!!!!!!!!!!You gave great discriptions. and well contexted!

[Davia Lynn Bradley]

very lovely

[Emily B]

Consolation not consellation. I'm not sure how a bell teals or what that means. Beautiful, seductive imagery, though.

[Katie Lynn]

very good, I like your style.

only in the last stanza I think you meant the bell peals softly.

I felt this one