Genevieve

And still I think myself done with grieving

until I see something that reminds me of you 

and tears start streaming

down my face, even in a public place.

 

I cry for the daughter I lost and for the sister my daughter lost.

I cry because I can't hold my other little girl.

I cry because she was and is loved even though she never took a breath,

all she got to experience was death.

 

I pray she heard her mothers heart beet when first she was alive.

I pray she heard my voice say, I love you so much when my heart burst with pride and joy.

She was and is my Angel, my sweet little girl, 

whom I will meet one day when at last I pass away.

Author's Note

I miss you more than even I will ever know. The pain of loosing you will never leave me Genevieve. I love you so very, very much.

Reviews

[Kenneth The Poet]

I understand your pain, brother. I truly, truly do.

[realmwriter]

Thank you my friend.

[Frieda P]

There seems to be an abundance of poetry on the cafe today about 'loss'...this gave my goosebumps, shivers...am not leaving a review, although your poem is brilliant, just know I felt this one deeply.

[realmwriter]

Thank you so very much. I truly appreciate it.

[Frieda P]

Was my pleasure, I felt this pain deeply yesterday....Genevieve is one of my favorite names.

[realmwriter]

Mine as well.

[AprilRN1210]

forgive me for my lack of eloquence in the following review, but I am trying to compose myself.. This is a piece that touches me and I can relate to on several levels...

first one is I am a registered nurse and work in labor and delivery and have to deal with my lovely patients suffering from this tragedy on a daily basis... something that was supposed to be the happiest time in their lives becomes one of the most devastating and horrific moments ever... I have to help them go through the physical process and then the mental and emotional healing.. it is very hard...

secondly, I was pregnant once and lost my sweet baby boy when I was five months along... I cannot begin to describe the depths to which that has destroyed a piece of my soul and will forever feel a part of me missing.... you have portrayed that undeniable, immeasurable love here and the profound anguish that plagues your spirit from then on out... you wonder, did they feel me?... did they hear me?... will their spirit know me once reunited?... do they know how much they were loved... oh my goodness, you have me tearing up right now... wheeeew....

raw, heart-wrenching and powerful.... amazing, courageous write... ((hugs))

[AprilRN1210]

forgot to add, did you mean "meet" in the last line instead of "meat"... sorry was so emotional once I got started forgot...

[realmwriter]

Yeah, that's what I meant. Need to go back and correct it. Even my brother pointed it out. Thank you so much for your caring words. I am sorry to have reminded you of a pain that you too will never forget. I have heard it said that we choose our parents long before we are ever born to them. If that is true then I wonder why she chose us? I wonder why after she chose us, did God call her back? I wonder a lot of things that will never be answered, but I wonder most if her sister will ever ask about her? And what will I say to her should she ask?

Thank You Again, your words are a comfort

[Moonie]

"The pain, it sears and scorches
like burning torches
in the night,
gasoline dreams of loss,
Chared ashes of love,
crowd my mind,
but still I hold on to
the ghostly phoenix
of forgetfulness that may someday
rise."

My tribute to your brilliant poem. I really can't say anything else.
In my favourites!

[realmwriter]

Thank you so much that tribute will copied and tatted. I have been searching for a piece that I wanted as a tribute to her, little did I know that is wasn't a picture I wanted, but words from someone I have never met IRL. Thank you so very much, I hope it is okay that I use it. It is very beautiful and perfect for what I'm looking for.

[Moonie]

I will feel honoured if you choose to use it. :)
Thank you for giving me this proud moment.

[realmwriter]

It's a beautiful tribute. Thank you for allowing me to use it.

[Moonie]

Can I ask where are you going to use it, dear?

[realmwriter]

Though it would be painful, probably across my right side ribecage. Or perhaps, wrapped as a single sentence from heel to Neck.

[kublakhan27]

I lost a niece to cancer at age five..I know where you're coming from as much as I can under the circumstances, but I'm too speechless to articulate it...I do know that the pain never goes away...all I can do is sigh and try to fight off tears as I read this...it's my favourite piece from you to date...I'm just thankful that you were able to end on a hopeful note...I wish I had more observations to offer, but hopefully my reaction says it all...

[realmwriter]

It does indeed. You need say no more and thank you none the less for trying and for taking the time to read this piece. Thank you so much...

[Ruth]

There are no words to take such loss and pain away, except I feel your pain love, really do, big hugs xx

[realmwriter]

Thank you Poppy. The hugs warm my heart... xx

[Mary Bosworth]

Very beautifully done! The meanings expressed here are clearly understood. I can feel your heart in this. I can hear where the message comes from and I can relate to each word, so carefully and skillfully conveyed.

[realmwriter]

Thank you so very much. And I am still not sure what to say. A writer at a loss for words. Ironis I suppose.

[Cory Barrett]

I cannot imagine this pain, I am so very sorry.

[realmwriter]

Thank you my friend.

[Ashira Macy]

You brought tears to my eyes in this, and that often is hard to do. I am so sorry for your loss, I have a close friend who lost a daughter when she was a baby as well, and I know just how wounding that is to the soul. I am sure she knows how much you love her and that you care deeply every moment of every day. Beautiful tribute.

whom I will meat one day when at last I pass away.

Only thing is just change meat to meet and you are golden. Content is flawless and full of pure emotion.

[realmwriter]

It will be changed. Can't believe I didn't notice it before I hit save. Thank you for your kind words, It means a lot.