It was different this time.

When you know what you have to do, changes take effect

I thought of you as soon as my eyes opened this morning, But It was different this time. Normally I would smile and can't wait to get online, .............................. 

This time It was (don't bother, delete images, erase visions and stop!!)

This time It was different. There was

No, "angel pulling me into the light", just dismissed.

            It's the smallest of things you witness when you pull your own heart out of the equation. And strip away the breathtaking, never felt kiss,

There were no good mornings, or good afternoons. There was just replies, responses no good nights or how are you(s)!

     

Unless from me of course. It's always from me. 

why as I held my hand over my face before my eyes opened, that I put on a pedestal  what couldn't even lift me? No love Tooken  away, just common sense being put back,

no wishes taken back, just self respect and worth in myself that was taking away, 

It was different this time before I laid me down to sleep, before I woke and that shutter between every palpitated  heart beat,

It was restraint from chasing, going after and waiting! It was strength to never forget what I deserve, when changes take effect even though it hurts, 

It was admitting and accepting and being okay that cupid again went all wrong,  

yet I'm left to face the music and withe away without the prick from the thorn, 

I almost fell, I mean I almost slipped!! But why continue to dream on a sinking ship,

                      Titanic more like it, everything, *cries*        everyone that I touch,

                                            EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING THAT I TOUCH,

 

Reviews

[B]

You become smarter the day that happens
you realize a real from a fake

only i dont believe in shutting down
people need one another

even if you are receiving half care
that is essential bullshit
all lies really

give yours genuinely its important to not walk away
you never know maybe this person really needs you
maybe that person will realize you caught on
and will stop eventually and start giving something real

maybe
maybe not

[silent poet]

thank you Nisreenaa a lot to think about. I appreciate the review and your words very much so :)

[Coyote Poetry]

Strong words and thoughts. Type of poem to open a long conversation with no proper answer. Life teaches us. We will raise and fall often. I liked the ending. Left the reader with things to ponder. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[silent poet]

Thank you so much and thank you for reading.

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome. I enjoyed your work.

[sinNsincerity]

"Unless from me of course. It's always from me," was my favorite part!
Great write hon!

[silent poet]

Thank you kindly...

[sinNsincerity]

Of course, Always...

[AaronFreitas]

Sometimes things are meant to be and sometimes they aren't. I have found more of everything that is not meant to be. Yet we continue to look for what makes us happy even though it may only hurt us more. To give up would be the end... sometimes the wrong people in the wrong places just open our eyes to what we really need rather than want :)

[silent poet]

That was beautifully written, in reading this I got stuck but I understood.. you left me thinking, but hey that's always a good thing right :) one day I'll get it right that's what I keep telling myself. Thank you Aaron for being a good friend..

[wordman]

well you laid it out in this write,don`t be hard on your self,your looking in the wrong places

[silent poet]

Trying not to be.. thank you and I also know that too :) the wrong places, the wrong people. It's not intentional just these days you never know with what one says but with one does .. thank you!!