Poison

I love you

I should have said it

I don’t want you to go

But you’re already gone

And I’m sittin’ alone

 

And I can’t stop the tears

All of my fears

Have been geared

 

Toward a paranormal universe

But reality was this universe

The paranormal wasn’t some distant far away place

No. It was right here in front of my face

 

The same face that used to smile

 

Has been eroded

And now corroded

By the poisonous drops of acid

That have fallen upon it

 

I always knew that this face would get bloodied and bruised

 

But it couldn’t ever be

That the pain and agony

Was brought on by me

Don’t you see

 

Right from the start

I loved you with all of my heart

 

But I was too much of a coward to say it

To show

To let you know it

Looking back on it

 

I don’t know why I didn’t tell you

I can’t figure it out

 

I got lost in my own fears

But now they’ve turned into tears

And it’s the tears

Not the fears

That are hard to overcome

 

Because fears can be conquered

But tears, they are stronger

 

‘Cause each one takes a piece of your soul

As it falls

And then it calls

A star from the sky

So you can see with your eyes

How soon you will die

 

At first, you look up and see so much light

Shining down

But soon, you begin to lose sight

You turn around

 

You can’t bear to look at the sky anymore

To see what isn’t there that used to be there before

 

‘Cause with every fear you grow stronger

But with every tear, you lose a piece of yourself

A piece of your soul

 

And the tears never end

They never dry up

But my soul withers

 

I’m running out of time

I can’t stop it

I’m going to die

 

No. There’s no doubt

I’ve killed myself

It was from the inside out

Not the other way around

 

In the end, it’s our choices that make or break us

I simply chose the wrong one

 

And I’ll never be the same

Without you I’m nothing

Not even worthy to name

 

I can’t believe that my biggest mistake

Was not sayin’ three little words

Three little f****n’ words

 

I could’ve said it

Could’ve done it

 

But I didn’t

And now you’re gone

And I’m all alone

 

And there’s nothing

There’s nothing left

 

I picked my poison and I picked it well

I could’ve saved myself from this hell

But I didn’t

 

Instead, I drank the whole bottle down

 

And now it’s just a matter of time before I die

 

I wish I could go back

And say I love you

But I can’t

 

You’re already gone

 

And now I’m gone

Reviews

[Brittany Zedalis]

"I’ve killed myself
It was from the inside out"

Those lines really hit me.
This is a heartbreaking piece, and well written.

[seanhoag]

Thank you. This was one of my first poems and was the one that really got me into the art of written and spoken word. I'm really glad you liked it.

[Brittany Zedalis]

It's really great. You're welcome.