In the form of a Pill..

In the form of a Pill..

A Poem by shallimarRose
"

drugged and raped...True story..

"


I close my eyes
the misty night air
tightens in my throat
I gasp
re-living you like a desperate lyric
reverberating over and over again
that night
a malignancy stained
into the fundamental existence
of trusting ignorance
a chartreuse soul
reading scarlet letters
and blaming myself
for your friendly portrayal
and lustful betrayal
in the form of a pill
slipped into the fragrance of saffron
when the roses were in bloom
and only you knew the intensity
of a broken heart lost and alone
in the crumbled foundation
of a troubled remnant
where the fabric of a young bride
had been ripped and torn to shreds
in the wake of a marriage
and the wake up call of a mistress
I was broken and helpless
and YOU
disguised as a friend
moved in for the kill
in the form of a pill
dazed and confused
intoxicated by a sip
of tasted betrayal
that left me lethargic
in the arms of a monster
when even then
you were not man enough
to go it alone
and the two of you
still echo in sounds
of muffled laughter
and unclear words
that follow me
forever trapped
in the dark corners
of a cerebral mask
where shame and self blame
lived for years
in the memory of four missing hours
that come like flashes of blinding light
and hidden memories
forever reappearing
disguised as a friend
that stole my will

in the form of a pill...

 

© 2010 bj smith
aka shallimarRose

 

see also :

Raped by a friend..A Night of betrayal, a lifetime..


© 2013 shallimarRose



Author's Note

shallimarRose
Bleeding ink.

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A monster is a monster even if they wear the mask of a friend. So sorry this is a piece of your history my sweet friend. These nightmares seem to cling to us forever, but somehow, perhaps through writing about it, I would hope you find a way to hide it in the dark shadows somewhere. The good thing is your wonderful poem can be a warning to other's who might now think twice before putting their trust where it maybe does not belong.

Posted 4 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

shallimarRose

4 Years Ago

Thank you Jack.. a few have already private messaged me and thanked me for the story and giving them.. read more



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A monster is a monster even if they wear the mask of a friend. So sorry this is a piece of your history my sweet friend. These nightmares seem to cling to us forever, but somehow, perhaps through writing about it, I would hope you find a way to hide it in the dark shadows somewhere. The good thing is your wonderful poem can be a warning to other's who might now think twice before putting their trust where it maybe does not belong.

Posted 4 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

shallimarRose

4 Years Ago

Thank you Jack.. a few have already private messaged me and thanked me for the story and giving them.. read more
I told my daughters. Trust no-one. Never go out alone. Take no drink from no-one unless you watch the bartender. I also taught my daughters self defense. One pill can disable a person. This is a scary place to be. Thank you for sharing the story in the poem. Young woman need to be careful. A lot of bad people in this world. Thank you for sharing this tale. It needs to be read.
Coyote

Posted 4 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

shallimarRose

4 Years Ago

Mom always told me the same thing. I knew him.. took my baby with me and kept my feet flat on the fl.. read more
This is such a frightening poem, Rose! I cannot imagine going through something like this. You took us inside and I could feel the terror, confusion and pain. Brave poem here. Angi~

Posted 4 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

shallimarRose

4 Years Ago

Thank you Angi for coming to read. This was written as sort of a letter to my rapist. I never thou.. read more
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This is really creepy, scary, sad and extremely well-written! It resonates as only poetry written from the heart could possibly do. Amazing as poem, horrific in real life! So sorry this happened to you!

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shallimarRose

4 Years Ago

Thank you Cher again for coming to read from my pages.. xo Rose
R...I seem to recall the other one as well. Like the other one, this one is so raw it's hard to critique at all. Would only suggest you check spell check it. ...bobc

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shallimarRose

4 Years Ago

I think I got them all fixed.. My spell check was not turned on and so I didn't see them.. thanks ag.. read more

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I am a singer, writer, poet, dreamer, believer..... I am an unconventional poet who has been writing rhyme since the age of five. I enjoy all styles of poetry. I write by ear not syllable count .. more..

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