Not condoned (Wouldn't even phase her)

unrequited love sucks. and this is how i feel.

Not condoned (Wouldn't even phase her)

Beat me down
Drop me to the ground
Tell me that I'm nothing
Get high refer huffing.
Laugh it off and start bluffing.

Let them think that it ain't nothing to you,
Pretend like you aren't completely see through.
She didn't say anything so it isn't even known to her.
Well if she did wouldn't some kind of event occur?
Or is it that it didn't even phase her?

I.V.'s saline
Morphine sick scene.
Get high think about spilling out,
Saying everything feeling that you know without a doubt.

Sick pain, lie to them.
Pop the pills that they'd condemn.
You know how you feel and maybe so should she.
Then get told that, that's not how it's supposed to be!

You all get stoned,
Think about saying it but then it gets postponed.
You're weak!
Pathetic! Can't even say it!
You wonder if it'd work? Forget it!
To late! Your zoned!
The others know and it's not condoned .

Author's Note

third for F/A/B/A/P/F2,
i get so tired of hiding the way i feel all of the time. however i know some feelings are damaging to existing friendships. at this point i do not know how i am going to deal with these emotions.