I wish I could read this to her...

We broke up and its been four years

And this loss still brings me to tears

How dare you show up in my dreams

This lust for your love, this horrible greed

I could not drown the feeling to bring you near

Love has become my nightmare, an ultimate fear

I torture my self with memories of your loving embrace

And in this pain my wishful thoughts begin to race

Haunted by this illusion of a future with you

Delusional dreams that somehow you miss me too

And To this day I refuse to believe

That my broken heart continues to bleed

I remember the days when I pictured you as my wife

And now my heart and I live in a fog of a life

For years I've have searched for a passion I cannot find

So I'd give up love forever to be with you one more time