Suicide Attempt

A Poem by Tsuki Usagi

A poem about giving up hope only to be reassured in terms of love and comfort.

The phone rings next to me

and I pick it up to answer the call.

The first sound to reach my ears

is steel against wood as you let the knife fall.

The tone of your voice

brings tears to my eyes

As you shakingly tell me

you called to say Goodbye.

My eyes widen in shock

as you say you can no longer go on.

That life just isn't fair

and you're tired of being its pawn.

I quickly try to calm you

forcing my voice to be strong.

Thinking through my words carefully

not wanting anything to go wrong.

But my soft words of courage

only seem to be in vain

As you repeatedly tell me you're alone,

that you can't take any more pain.

I feel my blood run cold in my veins

and my heart slowly comes to a stop

Upon hearing a beep from my phone,

notifying me the call has been dropped.

I rush from my house in panic

ignoring the yells that ensue

As I start the car and pull away

refusing to believe I might have lost you.

As I arrive at your house

I try to keep calm.

Quickly coming to your door

digging my nails in my palms.

The knob turns easily

and I begin to make haste

Fear creeping into my mouth

but I just ignore the taste.

I quickly locate your room

my heart faltering at hearing no sound

And I push open the door

only to find you laying on the ground.

I cry out in anguish

as I rush to your side

Cradling you in my lap

hoping you haven't died.

Upon seeing your chest rise

I sigh softly with relief

But I know it isn't over yet

so the sigh remains brief.

Slowly you look up at me

and the tears pool in your eyes

As you sit up whispering

this isn't how you wanted to say Goodbye.

Enfolding you in my arms again

pushing away my remaining fear

I tell you I won't let go.

That I'm staying right here.

I feel you shake in my arms

as you sob into my chest

I whisper words of love and courage

giving everything my best.

I tell you I don't want to lose you

and that you mean the world to me

You no longer are alone

and from your sadness you are free.

I tilt your head to look at you

and lean in for a soft kiss

I feel the tension leave the room

as I bring you away from the dark abyss.

I pull back from the kiss

and hold you close to my heart

Whispering again that I Love You

and never again will we be apart.

© 2012 Tsuki Usagi

Author's Note

Lately I have had many people come to me telling me that they want to end their lives. A person I really hold close to my heart being one of them. For all of you out there who have thought about giving up and ending your life, I know how hard life can be, I have been there myself. But I want you to know that you are never alone. There is always at least one person out there who is willing to help. Who loves you with all their heart and soul. So don't give up. We are here to help. We want you to know we care. So please, if you ever have any thoughts feel free to message me. I am willing to be there for you.