My Mother

A Poem by snow_angel

I plan my steps moment by moment,

Minute by minute, and day by day when lucky,

Tormenting myself with fears that are nothing,

I calm myself by crying.

I worry about every little thing,

I'm in pain, depressed, and pissed off,

Losing my mind, going insane,

I'm paranoid, desperately needing help.

She's always watching me, following my every move,

Two steps behind everywhere I go,

But never really there, truly,

it's all just a mind game.

I was caught so many times,

By her ridiculous fantasies that I'm pulled into,

And forced to make truth out of the web of lies she's told me,

I must never get caught again.

At times mom is right, I am lucky,

She can be nice, but she has many sides,

My friends only see her good side,

But I see them all.

So many lies have been told,

But then the truth always comes out,

About the false lives we live,

And the habits I can't break.

If I change my life now,

And never see, nor speak to her again,

When she starts to ask them why I left,

Maybe then, she will start to understand, everything she has done to me.

© 2014 snow_angel

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Shapirta

wow. great poem! has a deep message. very descriptive and paints a vivid picture in my mind! i can't wait to your other writings in the future! great job! also, can you do me a favor and review 'the silver necklace'? i want to know what others think of it. any constructive criticism is totally open! thanks, and great job again on the poem.