Invisible Pain

It rhymes, which is lame. But it's how I feel all the time.

So when everyone else knows they have somebody

I sit in the corner by myself all lonely

No one sees me and no one hears the screams

I’m invisible to the eye, that’s just how it seems

I’m not sure if I believe in love anymore

I really did used to, but my heart is so sore

Passionate arms are held out in front of my face

Something I can’t see because I’m trying to avoid what I don’t have which is grace.

They say hope has wings and you just have to reach for it

But my arms are so tired and I just want someone to mean it

I feel like a waste, and I wonder why

I have nothing to give the world and I don’t know why

When I’m unable to please them, but that’s pretty much all the time

Everyone says the wrong things just to mess with my stupid mind

Why can’t anyone see that when I’m alone I need someone

Or when I’m with people I just really need to be alone

Maybe it’s my emotions " people mess with them too

Something held in place we can never see that is between me and you

Maybe I’ll just give up on life " I’ve already tried twice

But my feelings just roll around finally stopping on what I don’t want, like dice.

Somewhere beneath all my weaknesses and pains

I know that I have something to give, but nothing to gain

That’s why I’ve stopped I don’t want to do this anymore

Something I’ve heard everyone say that life is “galore”

It’s all a myth and everyone knows it’s not true

Because they say what they don’t mean but it’s not new

People know that what they say can screw someone up

In life and in death, just bleed something into a cup

They don’t really want to see you because they don’t care

Never knowing what’s behind your ugly stare

Why can’t they see that I have all the feelings of planet Earth?

I have a heard of ice that is frozen and needs to be warmed by the hearth.

The essence of someone’s heart is the one that sees nothing.

That’s your heart that I’m trying to get, I just need something.

But the only one I love doesn’t love me back

Because they know that everything they have is everything I lack

The weeping willow cries out across the water

But it only reflects what she doesn’t even want to see later

I’m not ready to love especially myself, I just need the pain

Lines across my heart to make sure I’m still sane.

I need help, but why the hell can’t you see that?

You look right through me and don’t know where I’m at.

It hurts me so much that you don’t see my pain.

And if I stay on this planet any longer, I will still have nothing to gain.

Author's Note

Please comment! It took me a while to write this. Sorry if you don't like it and if it makes you depressed.

Reviews

[Valorie J. Shearer]

This is really beautifully sad and tragic. It really saddens me that you feel like this all the time; what a heavy burden that you can free yourself from! I know, I have been exactly where you are, and your pain feels like that is all there is but you can shine, and break through this, coming back stronger, and wiser than you ever imagined possible! I have faith in you; you have faith in you! Take care~~~