December-
when things die.
when things turn ugly in the morning light.
when your lips slide down my spine
too sad to run, my limbs loose life.
I could tell you meant it tenderly
the way your voice wrapped around my name.
a caress in your apology
but it felt like a choke-hold all the same-
i couldn't push you far enough away.
There's not enough water to wash me clean
500 miles and i still feel you're breath on me.
i want to sweep out all your cobwebs.
wash out my memories.
pour bleach in every crevice.
brush all your fingerprints off me.
i want to close the door on you.
again and again and again.
until i feel like three inches of wood and a dead bolt can keep me safe within.
come spring, you'll be nothing but a ghost in winter's skin.