Morning Regret

I wake up very numb from my face to my chest

feeling faint when I realize I am holding my breath

hands clinch my ivory sheets as if they had a pulse

 reality pushing through intentional denial of fate

 

curling around your pillow feverishly for your scent

your aroma cradles me before the hurt sets in

tears stream violently from the void of absent love

first time in life I understand, the power of regret

 

I force myself into the shower, warm water comfort

twenty minutes of solitude, an eternity of depression

memories will never forget the sensuality of your touch

my heart will never forgive the treachery of my deceit

 

questions swirl continually, never ending thoughts

 

why did I give into lust? 

How did all this happen?

 

a Pyrrhic victory for a moment of hungry sex

your love was the price, a victory at too great a cost

 

If I could turn back time

I would find strength in your love

stand strong on moral ground

instead incomplete is my love

it is impossible to live with myself

my mind won’t forget the event

your heart won’t forgive the mistrust

if I could turn back time

I would become the man you once loved

Reviews

[Sweet_pale_cacophony]

This is so poignant you know,and it evokes a strange array of emotions.It kind of feels good to read that even men feel this way,as an aftermath of a passionate but loveless night..that last line was so strong and it will stay on the mind for a long time.

[♥(heatherawesome..]

I love it keep it up

[NoneOfYourBusiness akaK..]

heartwrenching~a gorgeus raw write~ honesty with self is always the hardest part~

[Dawn Jones]

If only turning back time were possible... I would have saved myself so much pain and time wasted. Great write.

[Mindona Kanvas]

interesting perspective and way to convey such a strong message. I have often thought of the possible thoughts or words that may drip from another persons mouth who has caused unwanted hurt and pain. this is intense and thought provoking.

[Steve]

wow...very powerful! well done

[jenniewren (J.W. Bouwma..]

this is a very well written expression of anguish..so many moments in this are viscerally impactful! like (my favourite):

I force myself into the shower, warm water comfort
twenty minutes of solitude, an eternity of depression

god i know that so intimately on a myriad of occasions for a myriad of reasons.... simple words yes, but eloquent image

[Ruth]

This is almost painful to read, in a GOOD way! lol All the emotion of regret and sadness here is really moving
Great write!
xx

[Randy`s Princess]

nice read btw it`s poiniant in it`s clarity of regret lust and waking feelings that`s how I saw it anyway or maybe Corey did lmfao don`t worry it`s a nice read thanks for sharing :)

[Nianque]

This poem conveys the how lust can overpower lust in a moment but yet in the end you always want and try to return to love. Even if its sometimes too late.