Suicidal Ramblings

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“I’m sitting on the roof of my dad’s house because that’s the only place I get good cell phone reception. Its so tempting to just lie down, let myself roll off, and see what happens. I’m literally watching my world fall apart and there’s nothing I can do about it. I have to will myself to breathe because if I don’t I would just sit here unknowingly turning blue. Every time I move my back cracks because once I was used as a human doormat, literally.

            “This is the first time in a really long time that I remember suicide being a plausible option. Though I wouldn’t/couldn’t/shouldn’t go through with it. I’m too responsible and smart to do it. I know that everything will eventually get better. And I know that it would hurt a lot of people and I’m too much of a mother to ever do that to anyone. I would/could run away, though. I have plenty of places I could go. People love me, what can I say.

            “God, I could really use a cigarette right now. It’s been over two weeks since I’ve had one. I should be trying to quit, at least that’s what my boyfriend tells me. Though I’m not addicted. It just feels really good to be somewhere taking slow long drags on a cigg. Pulling it deep into your lungs. Then, exhaling in a satisfied sigh of nicotine and endorphins. God, I really need one right now. But I’m not addicted. (Yeah, hi, my name is denial.),” Melissa wrote.

            “Melissa, come down for dinner!”

            “Sure thing dad. I’ll be down in a minute.”

            Melissa put down her notebook and pen and stood up on the roof. “Here goes nothing.”

Reviews

[Lynx]

Cool, although really short. A really good idea, to run away instead of you know, whatever.

I'm planning to run away myself, not because of pain and all that shiz but for my dreams, hehe. I'm only writing it down here coz there is no way my parents would come on here, they barely ever use the internet, or knows how to.

Anyway, I really loved how your story started but it is really too short, hope you would consider writing more of this, cheers! xD