My Struggle

I hide beneath the blankets in the night,

I hide beneath my smile in the day,

I hide the demons which consume my every thought,

I hide the pain that is slowly making me wither away.

 

With my eyes wide open I lay in bed,

My ears catch the 12 o’clock striking of the clock.

I get up and straight to the bathroom I head.

I don’t look for the lights just the door I lock

And I fall to the floor feeling the pain

While my face is buried between my knees,

The tears fall on them faster than rain

And I pray to god that they will cease.

 

With my hands I try to muffle my cries

Hoping that nobody awakes,

The silence broken only by my sighs

While with trembles my whole body shakes.

Eventually the tears stop

And I make my way back to bed,

My face then to the pillow drops

And I can feel the wetness of the tears that I have shed.

 

I know that night after night I will cry this way

Helpless and alone till it’s finally day

But I hope one day that the pain will cease

And I’ll finally sleep the night with ease

And when I awake in the morning my pillow will be dry

And there’ll no longer be the need to cry.

Reviews

[Devi DM]

Wow you can literally feel the pain through each sentence. An awesime write.

[Curtis.Lenker]

Great work here. I enjoyed this piece. It really hit me in personal place. This is very well written. The emotion is powerful and intense. I really felt like I was in the bathroom with you. Thank you for sharing.