The Boy Who Understood Me

Expressing some thoughts and feelings about someone I met recently and have found myself falling for.

Why do I continue to hurt myself like this?

I could swear that the pain is something I would never miss

Yet, my heart continues to twist

Tearing me up from within, Love is a horrible sin

Meant to break people down and turn them around

Keep them from what should be found.

For me, Love is a sin too profound

I still remember the first sight of him

The one that would once more tear me up from within.

I felt nothing much at first.

I wasn't prepared for the worst.

Glasses and snapback

My mind pulled me back

He was not much to behold

Until the smile that was so bold.

Full lips and flirty tongue

Long lashes and dark eyes

Just like me he wished to die

Just like me he'd often felt the kiss of the blade.

At first I didn't know what was behind those dark eyes.

I didn't know of how he'd cried

Nearly died.

When I did, my heart cried

Cried out in want of him.

Just from swapping stories of different pain

Stories of rejection and hate

Reasons for exposing skin to a blade

Stories of dark days

He knew too well what it's like to wear a mask

Play along like you're okay

When you're simply keeping darkness at bay

And trying to save others from their pain

But you're only tearing yourself up more

He could be mine.

He could be the one I'm meant for

He understood how hearts tore

Understood my pain and more.

He cared.

Cared more than anyone ever could

Because he knew my pain better than anyone would.

He'd lived it and more

He's held my hand as carefully as he held me

So warm and kind though he'd been beaten down so many times.

I've often dreamed of what we could be

Felt it coming true with the smiles and hugs he gave me.

Felt it in the way he held my hand

But he doesn't want me

There is nothing more to see

Nothing more to feel.

A waste of my pain once more.

Could this please end?

Could my heart listen to my head?

Stop jumping into guys' hands so fast?

I just want to feel free and happy for awhile.

Author's Note

I haven't written in awhile but, here's a new piece based on some emotions and things that have been going on. Another is brewing but I have so much to do at the moment it can't stop coalescing and solidify yet.

Reviews

[KCthelastboyscout]

Real love is a scarce thing.when it happens give in and fall all the way.wouldnt you like the memory of someone special than never knowing that feeling at all?

[emipoemi]

This is powerful, and very well constructed. The progression and narrative really paint a vivid profound picture that makes readers feel the energy exuding from the words! If I may be so bold as to critique this a bit: take away "Love is a horrible sin" from Stanza 1, and that solo line that is Stanza 3, for they both repeat things that are either said beautifully after and before respectively, and whose power is therefore rendered null. The musicality of the poem would not be marred by this, and the poem would instead gain more power. Well done!

[Nicole_the_poet]

Check out my poetry 😊 keep writing

[Mr confido]

this is magnificent..... i'm thrilled with how you started....

[Tessa Melendez]

Thanks for the review. I'm not usually very good about rhyming, but I feel this one was good for me.

[Ace St. Jean]

That was a really good poem.

[Tessa Melendez]

I'm surprised that's all you have to say but, thank you.