A Story by KCthelastboyscout

...but on the inside...

Her eyes. Her smile. Unavoidable. Unmistakable. The shape of her body. You know every detail of its design with your eyes closed. She has a laugh that's contagious. You hear it once and it stays in your head forever. But this is as far as you can proceed.These are weapons of distraction. You are not allowed any further than what appears on the outside. Look further. Look deeper. Look into the windows of her soul and this is what you see..."WHEN I RUN AWAY,I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE,NOT CHASED AFTER.I WANT TO BE OVERWHELMED BY MEMORIES OF PAIN.I WANT TO FALL TO THE BOTTOM FLOOR IN A POOL OF DESOLATION .I WILL LET THE WATER ENTER MY BODY AND DROWN MY HEART AND LUNGS.ALL OF MY SECRETS WILL REMAIN BURIED INSIDE ME.I WILL SAY I LOVE YOU WHEN I KNOW I AM NO LONGER CAPABLE OF SUCH AN EMOTION.I WILL SAY ALL THE WORDS YOU NEED TO HEAR TO EASE YOUR SELF DOUBT.I WILL ALWAYS KEEP YOU AT ARM'S LENGTH.THE WALLS THAT SURROUND ME WILL BE TOO HIGH TO CLIMB.ALL ATTEMPTS WILL BE FUTILE.I PROMISE YOU.THIS IS WHO I AM.THIS IS WHO I WILL ALWAYS BE.I AM NOT WORTH SAVING...BUT I WANT TO BE LOVED ANYWAY

© 2017 KCthelastboyscout

Author's Note

Somebody will read this and know who they are

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Reviews I love how you reached all the girls with this one

Posted 22 Hours Ago

beautiful. It was like I was reading my own thoughts, realizing my own feelings. Very well done.

Posted 3 Weeks Ago

Wow.... very relatable. " I am not worth saving but I want to be loved anyway"..... golden!!

Posted 1 Month Ago

Very powerful and so easy to relate to. You have a way of seeing deeper into people than most can.

Posted 1 Month Ago

This is absolutely beautifully written. It is amazing and very emotional for me to read

Posted 1 Month Ago

Oh. My. God. Though not intended for me, no one has ever written truer words about me. Reading this was nearly a terrifying experience.

Posted 1 Month Ago

Wow...just wow. I can remember a time that I was here and this was me. Well done.

Posted 1 Month Ago

I think a lot of people can relate to this write, no matter if you are a man or a woman. Many people probably build this story up in their mind but are just too afraid to admit it and you did it for them. Love it KC!

Posted 1 Month Ago

You have a way with words. Very nice and relatable, as you mentioned.

Posted 2 Months Ago

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I really enjoyed this. I can relate and I like how you described her and then advised...this is as far as you will get.

Nice write.

Posted 2 Months Ago

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Added on October 6, 2017
Last Updated on October 6, 2017

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