Fear of Fear Itself

Fear of Fear Itself

A Poem by tiggerluhoo
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I think this is a question all we perfectionists ask ourselves..... That we won’t measure up to every-one's expectations, that our work won’t be good enough. Fearing the fact that we can’t be perfect.

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I’m lying on my bed soaking my pillow with tears,

trying to remember exactly what is my fear.


Is it the passing of time or the love that I lack?

The  mistakes that I've made or that I can't take them back?

What is it that I'm afraid of?  Why am I so scared?

Is it the fact that all my friends back then  never cared?


Is it the people I've hurt or the people that hurt me?

Am I afraid of everything I can’t seem to see?

Is it the love of a friend, or the loss of family?

Is it the chance that my life can end in a tragedy?


Is it the vivid sun that sets but won't seem to rise?

Is it the hope that I have that always seems to die?

Is it the trust of a person that I cannot  grasp?

Is it all the memories of my well hidden  past?


Is it me?


Is  the thing I fear most of all- the thing I can't be?

The things that I try to understand but do so bad?

The me that I always try to be  when I'm feeling sad?



The person I'm supposed to be? Is that what I fear?

Is it the talking behind my back saying I’m queer?

Or the fact that all my friends-with me they disagree?

I think that the thing that I fear most of all . . .is me

© 2012 tiggerluhoo


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Added on March 23, 2012
Last Updated on March 23, 2012
Tags: Fear, Anxiety, Disbelief

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tiggerluhoo
tiggerluhoo

Roosevelt, UT



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