NIRVANA

"I think of six impossible things before breakfast and impossible becomes possible when you think it is."

-Alice in Wonderland

Believing is the most important thing that connects the unseen from reality as Alice Kingsleigh created her own world of fantasy, striving beyond what is seen with or without assurance of it as existence or not, yet a little barrier separates me from her, because I only think of one significant dream I can give to myself and that is 'real happiness'. Quite simple to be ponder upon by an individual and so as ironic, for how could one aspire something that's already there? True, that it could be the simplest thing the way world can see it, but in fact it's

the hardest to achieve.

At the age of 12, I started to believe on real happiness, how and what it really feels like, so I pursue higher and deeper towards, what my theory suggests will delve the realm of happiness I've been searching of, 'success'. Revolving within the three corners of my community; home, church, school, where I spent most of my life, pushed me to see the social significance of success, aspired by many, thinking it'll be the best way towards my dream. School influenced me the most, continuing the path I once chose and focused more on academic achievements; to top the exam, to be an honor student, to win in competitions, for me seen to outgrow the first taste of success. My accomplishments step on to the next as days gone by, until my overjoyed attainments slowly embraced me as an ordinary walks of life.

Halfway on my journey I met a crossroad, to no one I could speak or cry no more, for none befriended me except change. Just as soon as looking back, I discovered that the nearer I step towards excellence, the lesser the happiness I achieve, then I started to ask myself, "Is this really what brings happiness or am I just being superficial?" I can't remember the last time I mingled with my friends, the hours my mom and I talked or even the chances I smiled for stupid things. God provides me with a second chance, to once more put the faith in my own palm, to

rotate my world over again.

So I choose in the middle of what I'm reaching and who I'd become. It's not about the number of certificates, medals or trophies acquired, it is the little appreciation on what you do, contentment on what you have/become and satisfaction from the things around you.

Alice twisted hopelessness to a possibility further, I can say more than that, because I already turned possibility into probability. Happiness is a puzzle made of pieces you can't find, yet I stepped back just to get those pieces, for at the peak of success is an empty box where there's a chance to assemble completely every piece of joy I once set aside in life. Its funny thinking that the thing I gave away is the very thing I'd been looking for.

"Not what we have but what we use,

not what we see but what we choose,

these are things that men or bless human

happiness."

-Joseph Newton-

Author's Note

..the title speaks of the grunge metal band 'nirvana'
..inspired by Kurt Cobain
=]

Reviews

[Domenic Luciani]

An emotional piece. I can see this comes from the heart. Obviously there's not much to say story wise because this is more of an essay, but it has a lot of wisdom and I don't feel like breaking it down grammatically because there's not much point to that. I can tell you enjoyed writing this, and for a work such as this, that's all that really matters.

[CHRIS ANDES]

thanks =]

[Max_E_Stone]

Very inspirational! This is a great piece!

[Rhea752]

brilliantly done!! there was a lot of emotions and the quotes added a nice touch!! great job!! :)

[CHRIS ANDES]

;p

[Ness of Love]

Really good :) The quotes added to the story

[kjsa]

Great piece, I like the quotes adds a neat touch.

[Reaper]

excellent piece of work

[Sir Robert Robbie Lord ..]

happiness is doing what we did as a kid that's natural tho' as we go back onto it
each chance we get better maybe sooner than expected we will become superhuman not superficial our heart's our soul's our mind's our artform
whatever that may be will be perfected because it's not there we'll have it
we'll achieve it atleast a piece of it and a place in it of a great book of great work, thanks, for the nice review i never though myself inter-resting
i like your thoughts and you did very fine picks for those inserts
yet don't pick on the greats too much
it's better to choose to use your's
one rose one bloom one thought one poem at a time it won't hurt your own hand handle it with care if it does pluck
the thorn off before you place them in the vase
like Alice in Wonderland it sure can be a reckless life

[Cluff]

Great work!! I love how strong it reads. There's a lot of emotion there.

[Cody Michael]

This is a very interesting piece of writing...I feel like a lot of work went into this. I enjoyed reading it a lot.

[Seanne Tholltree]

i can feel the emotions you've put into this piece...great job ^_^