Waiting Around--after “Walking Around” by Pablo NerudaA Poem by Trish HopkinsonIt
so happens, I am tired of being a woman. And
it happens while I wait for my children to grow into
the burning licks of adulthood. The streaks of
summer sun have gone,
drained
between gaps into gutters, and
the ink-smell of report cards and recipe boxes cringes
me into corners. Still I would be satisfied if
I could draw from language the
banquet of poets.
If
I could salvage the space in time for
thought and collect it like
a souvenir. I can no longer be
timid and quiet, breathless
and
withdrawn. I
can’t salve the silence. I
can’t be this vineyard to
be bottled, corked, cellared,
and shelved.
That’s
why the year-end gapes with pointed teeth, growls
at my crow’s feet, and gravels into my throat. It
claws its way through the edges of an age I
never planned to reach
and
diffuses my life into dullness" workout
rooms and nail salons, bleach-white
sheets on clotheslines, and
treacherous photographs of younger me at
barbecues and birthday parties.
I
wait. I hold still in my form-fitting camouflage. I put
on my strong suit and war paint lipstick and
I gamble on what’s expected. And
what to become. And how
to
behave: mother, wife, brave. © 2014 Trish Hopkinson |
StatsAuthorTrish HopkinsonUTAboutI like to share interesting writing tips, articles, calls for submissions (no fee only!), and other info to help promote writing and poetry in general. I have always loved words–in fact, my moth.. more..Writing
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