i still drown

some things take me back -
to sleep over a century,
to lay down my heart,
a mile away from you,
to lose the hurt
that when i wake,
i would see a sign of the sky,
from a broken pane,
i would forget the pain,
i would see blue drowning blue
but i know this -
that nights would wake,
a new distance on my face,
i would be with you,
in the morning
not knowing where you are,
not knowing who i am,
finding North is not North,
the ocean is gone,
the moon has been buried
but i still drown,
i still drown