it keeps me sane.

 

Living in this world, often times I feel - claustrophobic.

Living inside their system, often times I feel - restrained.

Living inside a shell, often times I feel so - distant.

 

Watching my world slowly collapsing.

Watching my reality in slow motion, pretending.

Watching my fantasy more than what’s real, it keeps me sane.

Author's Note

Sorry If I am not around much, I feel some gray road test yet again in my mind.

Sometimes when I feel like my emotions is eating me up and my mind is at constant wonder, I can't write or even concentrate. Sometimes I just lose myself into games and videos - watching, never minding about anything else. Just think about that world I am in the moment – seeing, working my mind to ease some negative emotions. Even though some people may think, laying around doing lazy things. Actually I don’t like doing nothing. I want my mind to always work and always think perhaps because I just don’t want think of reality too much. To avoid the things I don’t want to face, or afraid to face. I always mention in my poems about this door that I fear. Someday I’ll be able to open that, someday…

To all that read my work, thank you.
I may not able to return the feedback as much a possible - but I will as soon as I able again. I truly appreciate to those people who always came by and understand, it means so much to me.

Reviews

[Androglossia]

More often than not, we tend to make our own surreal world to escape from what's real. But we always go back from where we came from - reality. The more we run away from it, the lesser opportunity we'll get in planning strategies of manipulating the so called reality. We don't have a choice. It's all or nothing. This piece shows the weaker part of a person in general yet the main theme is what attracts the reader. Well done!

[Shep]

I guess it better to be sane instead of insane, I am little more on the insane part. If you know what i mean. once again you stir such emotion in me.

[Inspiring Writer]

I must agree with your words. I read this poem and as i do always say, your poems and my thoughts both're indirectly connected to the same theme... this time again happened the same :)
I liked you too have such a nice thinking of lives, about life's. It's a well penned poem. Keep writing dear friend, Pax.

[joshua deathdealer]

I feel exactly the same. Contained inside this forged reality. My mind is constantly scrambling as if I have something to complete but no map to show me the way. Splendid work. Excellent expression.

[David Scott]

The last line is a great admonishment of the arts in general. We need to feel beyond the moment and live within our dreams. Yes, this is a great way to stay sane in an insane world.
The write felt a little desperate, but it also felt raw and honest. I liked this type of work.
Good job here Pax.

[Sunflower/Sara Kendrick]

Interesting work penned..There has to be a very real separation of imagination and reality though..We have to live in this world even though it is a very difficult place..It is nice to have an escape to relax the mind..Enjoyed reading your work today..Thanks for the visit to my page..Sara

[Coyote Poetry]

I like the flow of the thoughts in the poem. Claustrophobic, restrained and distant easily felt in this world. The closing paragraph left me wanting more. I watch the world from a distance and I feel like I'm watching a movie of a world falling down. Thank you for the excellent poetry. Writer's write, writer's think. Writer's are observers and sometime can feel distance from the real world. Two concepts on this. Some writer need to be observers like Hemingway. Some writer's write the truth. Kosinski, Dryden and Helen Jackson. A great poem. Made me think too much this late evening.
Coyote

[Horizon K.]

Yes we can build and destroy however we care to in our fantasy worlds, it can be comforting there, as the ruler of all you can see... The real world all the while is much more difficult... yet much more rewarding when it is conquered...
Revealing and emotive. Be well, dear Pax...

[Marie]

Perhaps your fantasy world is getting you ready to face the real one.