The InspectorA Poem by w.s.15She used to only come to visit, but now, she never wants to leave.It was 3am Again My thoughts had managed to lose sight of sleep They were too busy attending our old friend: Insanity Self-hate Or how I like to call her The Inspector
She began her surprise visits my 6th grade
year Seeming to only want to help me improve myself, And not realizing the future damage she would do, I let her into my mind, my sanctuary, She’d only rarely visit at first Make a few helpful comments here and there Run faster. You can do better than that. C’mon, push yourself a bit harder. Then walk herself out the door She was just helping This went on for months
My 7th grade year Inspections became more frequent More harsh You may need to work out a bit more. There’s no chance he’ll like you. Pick
someone else. Don’t do that. They’ll think you’re even
more annoying. Oblivious That’s what I was Oblivious to the garden of weeds she was growing In my sanctuary In my mind She was just helping
My 8th grade year They were no longer visits She had moved in Making sure I didn’t rip out her precious weeds You never do anything right. Nobody likes you. You’re so annoying. Inspecting all day Criticizing me all night I WANTED HER OUT I missed- No I craved
peace and quiet
It was 3am The inspector was speaking I’ve been stuck with you for 4 years. Let me out! Once you’re gone, I can move on. Nobody wants you here anyways! Can’t you follow orders? Let. Me. Out. The weeds in my mind, my sanctuary Were now growing, climbing down to my heart The inspector willing them to squeeze out the little
life I had left in me I sliced and sliced and sliced at my wrist Hoping to cut out the now prickling vines I swallowed the pills, so many pills Hoping to poison the soil STOP! STOP! What are you doing? No! I was just following orders. No! This is what the inspector asked for To be set free No!
It was 3am Again My thoughts had managed to lose sight of sleep They were too busy attending our old friend: Insanity Self hate Or how I like to call her The Inspector
© 2015 w.s.15Author's Note
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