My mind likes to eat itself alive.A Poem by Nicola Taylor
My cavern is growing more entrenched in its own cracks,
molded pride that eats like a starving dog, never satisfied like my own curiosity of lies and life and things that aren't supposed to be explained. Yes, I have infiltrated your kingdoms, the ones inside your head and heart and I have taken my one man army and bred its hate into an armageddon only I'm invited to; because you would never come like that day in the airport when you left me stranded, chewing on my hair out of anxiety like an orphan girl ready to be upbroughtright into a society that doesn't want her or need her, honestly or that time when you went to my home just to see the lights and you left me chewing on my nails never knowing, because that's just what stupid f*****g girls do when they can feel something breathing and beating and living on the insides of their stomachs that wasn't meant to be there So, yeah, you could say I've been waiting and believing in things like you and god and those people who hold your hand at night, but in those caverns it's just me watching the water erode my insides til there's only sand left to be made into pearls and by then there's not even a grain left of me anymore And, f**k, I'm going to have to find a way to deal with that because the silence of the waves is making me wonder that maybe I'd rather them eat me clean away than to keep trying to fight off my own heartbreak. © 2010 Nicola Taylor |
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